First, i just now noticed OF saves every single post and ppv..

First, i just now noticed OF saves every single post and ppv message on here and I can apparently send that to people? 😵 I need to look it up bc I'm such a boomer with technology and updates and shit 😴😆 Now for the kinda worrying update 😬 I know it's lame to share negative shit with people, when you come here to see things that make you happy, i have alot of peeps here that have watched my crazy journey with addiction/health over the years and I rly rly appreciate you guys alot 🥹 This is gonna be affecting alot in my life and I don't want to disappear so talking about it helps me stay active on here ❤️‍🩹 The past few days I've been battling with what I thought were just rly bad womannn cramps, but the past few months they've been more in my upper left stomach..which is where my pancreas is. And the pain shoots into my back which is a way too familiar nightmare feeling. I looked it up and was in shock that many women experience an acute pancreatitis flare up right before/during each cycle, and doctors don't even look into or do research about it. . I have chronic pancreatitis and haven't had a flare up since I stopped drinking. Which was the reason I have it now 🫣 But having this happen 4 months in a row for 4-5days is so debilitating 😴 Luckily right now it's like mildly ouchie, but I can't eat or drink fluids bc it will increase inflammation and its TORTUREeee 😭😭 I'm so hungry and thirsty and this is why people go to the hospital and then are made to stay there for days when they go through a full flare up. Taking pics and content n shit hasn't been a thing the past few days, so im doin half off everything with my Vault ❤️‍🩹 I totally am scared as shit that this is now an every month type thing. Theres no help for it except to heavy restrict my fat to like 10g a day beforehand. I feel normal for only two weeks out of the month before I start feeling wack pms/pancreatitis shit at the same time. Being a woman is gnarly enough lmao I had no idea having chronic pancreatitis could come back to fuck me up in the future in a totally different way. Jfc praise da lawd for me pls LOL I really need good Vibes. 👽❤️‍🩹 Currently I feel way better then the last few days, I haven't eaten or drank water today yet and that's 100% why haha 😅 WHY CANT A PANCREAS BE REPLACEDDDDDD 😭😭😭😂 If you read all of this, it means alot to me that you care 💜 All my content is Half off until Thursday 💫💞