This post took days to write so apologies for posting it lat..

This post took days to write so apologies for posting it later than I said 😅 starting off OF again with some body shots 😏😏😏 BTW OF is now deleting MESSAGES that I'm sending content to, so if you want content, look at my tip menu (last pic) and send me your email when you tip 🖤 IM BACKMKKKKK. MEGA UPDATE TIME. I can't believe there's peeps here still supporting me it made me cry when I logged in and I'll be sending you guys a message 🥰🥰🥰🥰 I can't thank you enough. Idk if I can recover my relevancy after that long of a break offline and thats terrifying bc my art is my life and i wanna keep ot as my job, But I'm gonna try 🥹 First good news! I finally started working in my attic, which will be my new roomm! I would love to go live and paint 🎨 Sooooo what has I been doing In life? I used to share EVERYTHING on here and as time has passed it became harder and harder to open up about anything. I'm still struggling with it, and need therapy to figure out what happened to my brain after years of binge drinking and doing fucky shit. But I was in a massive withdrawal from kratom from like may-september it legit took THAT LONG, it was a horrible time I felt like I was a braindead fuck for weeeeeeeks I couldn't get up and do anything it scared me bc i wasn't feeling mentally there for sooooo long SPEAKING OF BRAINS.....update in my health! So I found the best pcp ever here she's fucking RAD and It is absolutely insane the difference in care with doctors here compared to Arizona. I never have had to call to refill my meds and play telephone with doctors here yet, it's a miracle lol but I am having trouble finding a dentist who can knock me out fully to clean my teeth. It's gonna be like 5k to do bc anasthesia is so expensive but I can't get em cleaned without it bc I can't keep my mouth open So I've had the same aligners in since moving and my jaw is kinda collapsing again, causing a tonnnnnn of regression to happen with my progress 😔 I was doing so good blowing thru those liners and my pain wasn't as bad. But now that treatment is on hold bc they won't do anything till I get my teeth cleaned I'm kinda in a chronic pain spot again. I also have too much of a phobia to get the surgery i need that I legit had to turn the car around on the way to the consultation bc panic attack 😅 yes im a huge pussy when it comes to bloooood and surgery and shit lol so my terror is also delaying things 😬 I FINALLY FEEL HUMAN THO AND ITS ALL THANKS TO VITAMINS I told my pcp how I have chronic fatigue/lactic acid building up super fast when i get up to where it felt like I ran a marathon just walking around She recommended me like a cocktail of vitamins and a few days later I was like Holy shit. I haven't felt this good inside in my whole lifeeeeeeee. Completely helped my fatigue, and also how my brain functions I'm not such a scrambled egg hahahah Omgomgomg Halloween is coming up and I just got some contacts last min!!!!! I wanted to make a couple dope ass looks and make some content for here! I mean I am the boner killer after all 🤣🤣🤣 gimme some ideas for makeup if you wanna see me do somethin! 🥰 IM SO SCARED FOR WINTER LOL 😆 I'm from Arizona so like jackets didn't exist in my wardrobe or gloves or anything warm 😅 I've never experienced snow in the winter EVER like a real winter haha I'm Def gonna be a shut in 😅 my jaw locks up so bad in the cold and oh man lol I need to invest in some balaclavas and neck cows and shiiitttt heh I know I have way more to update with, so I'll add more everyday! I'm stoked to get back on here and have a routine of some kind again. And I can't thank you guys enough for supporting me thru the quiet months on here. Means the universe to me 🥹🥹