Fuck…. Thank you guys 🥺🥺 for still being here, it means the ..

Fuck…. Thank you guys 🥺🥺 for still being here, it means the universe to me 🤍🤍🤍 spicy 🌶 pics for everyoneeeeee since I’ve been quiet ❤️‍🩹 Good news first:: we moving into a two bedroom next weekend finally more room and privacy oh my goddddddd hahahaa I’ve been going a bit crazy 😬 The scoop on my brain lately :: i feel like I’m failing alot of people right now and had another breakdown today with my dad because his job and his 83828282 bosses are basically showing he’s disposable by how bad they’re dragging their feet not giving him an answer if he can move.. when there’s been many people that have moved at his job no problem, and they want him to come back quarterly on his dime even tho they have a HQ in NY, which is insanely not okay considering he’s never had to go into work for the past three years. Never mandatory. And no one else has to do follow any rules or come back from out of state.. it’s a long story and complicated but thinking about being trapped here sent me into a rly bad mental pit because idk how much more I can handle living in this state, there’s so so much trauma here it’s hard to exist in a peaceful state of mind when I go out, and this heat absolutely kills me in comparison to the cold, dunno why but it’s def exhausting and I would rather be snowed in with a fire than hot as fucj with a huge electric bill lol seriously both me and my dad need this new chapter so badly I just want him to be happy, and get the house he wants and deserves, it’s been so much bad and zero good happen for him no balance 😭 and he’s never taken a day off work, and cant 😞 he would be retired if it wasn’t for him not signing a prenup twice lol fuck We were looking up employment lawyers to negotiate bc the least they can do is fuckkng compensate for the trips but I worry about him having to fly so many times a year with his age 😔 16 airports a year nooooo 😭 that was another thing that made me have an ultra fucking mega meltdown like ughhhhh Here’s pix I took a couple days ago, been really down so apologies for late replies, and pls remind me if I owe you a folder so I can have your msg be at the top when I reply after I wake up 💞 sorry that was a mouthful I appreciate it if you got this far haha but I like to be transparent and I only feel semi comfortable doing so online now on this site, I don’t know why lol but I guess cause you have to pay if you wanna hate on me and that’s hilarious 😂 and not likely, I feel like you guys are here bc you genuinely like me as a person and I’ve said that before but it means AlOTTtTt to me, thank you 🥲 if my eyes aren’t fucked up from crying tmrw imma go live on here, k did for a bit on Instagram and that was so nerve wracking bc it’s been so long 😂 I’ll save it tho for da replay peepssssss!