Hey everyone, PushingUpRoses here. Happy New Year. I just w..
Added 2024-01-03 21:46:17 +0000 UTCHey everyone, PushingUpRoses here. Happy New Year. I just wanted to thank everyone for their contributions last month, and wanted to update everyone that I was able to donate $3,000 dollars to the Cancer Research Institute. As most of you know, I lost both of my parents to lung/brain cancer, and this is a very important cause to me. I know it may seem odd to combine OF with charity, but in my (sexy) heart, it felt right. Thank you all for the last three months of support on this page. I’m pretty stoked that despite Body Dysmorphic Disorder, I am able to keep this page updated. Because the last few months have been so emotionally devastating, I started eating my grief. Which isn’t as badass as it sounds when I phrase it like that. I knew this would happen; I knew I would experience some challenges while operating this OF, which is exactly why I should keep doing it. Because I started grief eating/binging, I gained some weight, which shouldn’t be a big deal, but in my neurodivergent trash brain, it signifies a complete loss of “control” and makes me feel “disgusting.” Neither of these things are true, but that is the nature of this mental illness. It is particularly cruel, misleading, and…wrong, frankly. It became harder to take picture;, thirst traps became stressful versus exciting, but the only way to really take power over BDD is to keep doing things that make me feel uncomfortable. So that is what I am going to do. To be honest, creating this page has been one of the powerful things I’ve ever done (next to starting my YouTube channel). It’s sad to me that a few bad eggs have decided to harass me over it, without even trying to understand my POV. But for those who stayed and left me supportive (and spicy) comments: Thank you. Now: to be new lingerie and tight vinyl dresses for future content. ;) -Roses
