happy christmas, *if you celebrate that kind of thing*, and ..
Added 2021-12-25 10:03:51 +0000 UTChappy christmas, *if you celebrate that kind of thing*, and if you don't...happy saturday 🌿 This Christmas I'm alone. It is my first year as an immigrant. Holidays aren't always joyous for everyone, this year was going to be a little tough for me because this entire relocation has been difficult and not exciting like everyone assumes or projects onto me. But then my belongings got delivered after waiting 6 months and for the first time in a long time I don't feel like I'm pouring from an empty cup. It's deeper than "happy"... I feel genuinely content and at peace. I feel safe. Not just for the first time since relocating 6 months ago, but for the first time in a couple of years. Unpacking my boxes, my books, the heirloom rugs, my art...uncrating my mirror!! This was really important for my mental health. It's finally feels real. I get to start this chapter of my life. I arrived into it months ago, but now I'm actually inside of it. It's hard to put words on how that feels. Normally on Christmas Day I would go see a movie in theater. This is a 30+ year tradition for me...*also a common tradition for Jewish folks and heathens who don't celebrate Xmas*. I didn't think I would find an open movie house in this catholic country...but I did! However *womp womp* because of the new virus variant the only accepted vaccine record for entry is the movie theater is the digital European vaccine card. I only have my US paper record. So I'll have to forego my Christmas tradition this year but I'm not too mad at it...Today I'll be baking and cooking and watching movies **FROM MY SOFA INSTEAD OF THE COLD HARDWOOD FLOOR** and sauntering around half clothed half naked and smiling a lot. I hope today you're surrounded by love, and warmth and that you create the experience you want to have this holiday. 🌿
