pink_baby

I’m not in the best place mentally. I get panic attacks even..

Added 2020-10-15 11:49:03 +0000 UTC

I’m not in the best place mentally. I get panic attacks even opening social media so I’ve been slowly deleting my personal accounts. I got a message from a “fan” saying they’re upset with me because I don’t post as much or even the same content anymore, and I’ll be very frank, I told them they won’t be missed and blocked them. This is my only safe space to post as only close fans have access to this page. But I’ve been thinking and, I don’t even think I deserve fans. So please don’t continue to support me because I have nothing left to give.

I am a human fucking being. I’m hurting every single day. I go to work at the club as therapy and even there I’m not the same. I cut off my world, my therapist, everything.

I’m tired of being a burden to those around me by just existing.

I’m tired of putting so much effort into people just to be tossed aside when I’m no longer needed.

I’m tired of being misunderstood.

I’m tired of not being happy.

I’m tired of everyone giving up on me.

I’m tired.

I am just so tired.