No edits, just me as I train this morning. I completed a Bac..

No edits, just me as I train this morning. I completed a Backbend session for 45 mins working on ankle grab and Chinstand. 30 min Conditioning for walkovers gymnastic style. I have never trained in gymnastics. I want to learn better control with momentum. So this is why I am training in this style. Followed by a 30 min glute activation session to deepen my middle splits and create better pelvic activation and a fully body 45 min workout with dumbbells for chest, core and legs. I got up at 5am to make time before work. Feeling done and dusted but happy I did it. It had me reflecting as I worked out and here are my journaled thoughts… Every day I wake up wishing to see myself with kinder eyes, love myself and accept myself more. My internal world is not always peaceful like most of us humans. It is so often stirred by the outside world's voices of all the things I am not and why I am not worthy. If people were to connect with me in person. They would not see a confident beauty that had it all figured out. They would see an unedited person walking side by side with everyone on this earth. Often shy and goofy trying to get by. My mind often dreams like so many. My dreams are of easier days, more kindness, love and more answers to have life figured out just like many of us. They would see an ordinary girl working hard to accept, love herself and deal with her past. They would see a girl who knows deep down that the grace and ease she dreams of always exists within her. In the world of letting go, healing, an upward spiral of kindness, self compassion and love. They would see a girl that some days has it figured out and seems to get it right and other days a girl whose darkness takes her on paths of healing and challenge she'd rather not be on. They would see a girl whose beauty does not fit the definition of beauty or make everyone see her as beautiful. She is simply a girl learning that beauty is not a definition. But instead a becoming of blooming to be who you truly are and those outside voices are by no definition you. No matter how hard they are to let go of and who they are saying you are, as they invade your mind's thoughts. We as humans must always try to remember our beauty and worth is about becoming or relearning who we are and sharing that unapologetically. What she struggles with most in life is she is a giver and a kind soul and is walked on often. Also because what she shares is real and unedited many misjudge her and place stories that are not hers on her life creating barriers of connection. Her heart is big but raw and open, feeling hers and others struggles. She wishes she could wave a magic wand so we could all be kinder, heal and see each other's hearts and souls more. Instead of the barriers and reasons why we can’t connect, heal and work together. She is a girl who does not understand why we are all competing, why so much hatred/fear, why numbers make us worthy or not and why we cannot rise by celebrating each other. It feels simple to her but the world does not remind us we are in this together, it reminds us of all the ways we are disconnected. If they were to truly see her they would see a simple girl in a woman's body wishing for more love and kindness from the outside world and knowing at the same time she is the hero of this story. She must choose her true responsibility for how she responds to everything. She must remain focused on working on that love and kindness in an imperfect world, in an imperfect body and imperfect mind within herself, because that is all she can do. Reminder if you wish to see my full art and workouts join me on p@treon link in socials