

-have you ever done psychedelics? when i was growing up and first got into the **devil's lettuce**, my sister's older friends would talk about how they or their friends did shrooms or acid, and the experiences they would talk about would intrigue me. before my anxiety got super bad, i would look up videos on it and wonder why these things were labeled as **so** dangerous? obviously as i've gotten older and read more about these things, i know there interactions with medicines, your state of mind has so much to play into it, etc.. i never got to do them before my anxiety got really bad, and i knew i wouldn't be in a good state of mind to have a good trip, and i didn't want the possibility of having a bad trip because the stories i had heard about them was *super* scary. i ended up doing 🍄 last year anyway bc i was at a time in my life where i felt i had to push myself out of my anxiety comfort zones so i could be stronger as a person. in short, the trip was bad ^^' the things i got from it were sososo wonderful, but bc i have emetephobia and the main reaction to it is nausea, i spent the **WHOLE** trip trying to keep myself from *throwing up*. i never did, but oh boy was it **hell**. i didn't realize it at the time, but i took 3x the amount you should take for your first trip LOL i definitely want to do it again, but at a much lower dose. it really really helped my anxiety for quite a few months afterwards. some states are legalizing them and starting therapy research! i know a lot of people don't understand or like psychs, which is *completely* okay! things affect everyone differently and all opinions are valid! anyway, i just wanted to share lol. if you're interested in hearing what my trip was like and what i got from it, lmk and i'll make another lil diary entry c: "OpEn YoUr MiNd" lol -Lotus 🌺