And we have come to the last part of my drama story. To sum ..
Added 2023-01-22 15:32:57 +0000 UTCAnd we have come to the last part of my drama story.
To sum up all the points of my nervous breakdown is
1. Problems with work, documents and salary.
2. Exploding brain from a large number of studiesto bring out my reach and platforms to attract the target audience. The opposite result of all my efforts. Lack of sales of my paintings.
3. Blocking my instagram (the main source of my life, damn it)
And the icing on the cake for my anxiety is the news that my best friend is expecting a baby.
While I am torn in the anguish and suffering of my worthless life. While I'm catching depressive thoughts and vibrations, my best friend is in the same state just for a different reason.
She did not want it, it happened as it usually happens - RANDOMLY!
I have almost no friends, and my only friend with whom I shared my carefree time, my travels, smoking marijuana, etc., is faced with a choice. And I needed to pull myself together and support her.
This suggests that in the near future you need to radically change your lifestyle, forget about travel for a while, quit smoking, and reconsider many things in life. My friend also has enough problems, and this news, like a crushing blow right to the heart, split our lives.
I remember my hands were shaking just thinking about it. I heard her voice on the other end of the phone and couldn't help her. I can’t imagine what I would do if I were in such a situation, because for me now a сhild is a complexity of the highest scale. For her too. I will not describe you her whole life situation, just take my word for it. This news for us is a complete ass!
And here I am sitting in the middle of this collapsing shit called my life, and I don’t understand what to do. 🥲
