my drama part 2 The second reason for my concern was in stu..
Added 2023-01-04 16:54:36 +0000 UTCmy drama part 2
The second reason for my concern was in studing. Due to the fact that my business was not going well, I could not sit idly by. It was necessary to act. I decided that I needed to develop my Instagram profile with my paintings. Now the fastest way to advance is “reels”
I began to actively shoot videos for promotion and make content. It is quite difficult when you have absolutely no energy, inspiration and ideas. To all this is added the winter period, which gives us little light. So I had to get up very early and have time to do everything before it gets dark.
In parallel, I took two courses in algorithms and marketing. I was so obsessed with it that I literally fell asleep with a bunch of papers and notes in bed with my plan for the day and the content plan for all my platforms. I run 2 instagrams, twitter, and 3 third party platforms. For each, you need to come up with content, shoot it, have time to draw, respond to messages, undergo training, complete my challenge that I came up with for myself just during this period and go to stretching
I was very burned out emotionally. I cried literally every day from powerlessness and helplessness. I looked at others who do everything easily and compared myself. Against the background of others, I looked like a loser and my hands dropped.
My friend told me that I needed to rest, that I was going crazy, but it seemed to me that I still wasn't doing enough. I needed to earn money to pay for the apartment, food and solve issues with my salary (which I wrote about in the first part).
One day on December 2nd, I just gave up, once again looking at how I get the opposite result. I just lay on the floor and didn't want anything. I felt shattered into a thousand small pieces, I just burned 😭
