A strange thing happened yesterday… My mother had a birthda..
Added 2022-11-12 22:14:08 +0000 UTCA strange thing happened yesterday…
My mother had a birthday, I ordered flowers for her to be delivered to another country. Paid for the order, but it was not delivered 😡
At this point, I was in training and I was constantly distracted by something that would check the message from the site manager or support.
I got very upset. The exercises were very difficult for me. I couldn't relax at all. When I left the training, the manager of the site where I ordered flower delivery stopped answering me.
And then something strange happened.
I felt so angry. At first it was like a blow to the heart, then heat began to spread from the heart throughout the body. This feeling enveloped me, seeped into every cell of my body. I got hotter and hotter. Then I noticed how my heart began to beat very strongly, my hands were shaking.
If this was a cartoon, then steam would come out of my ears.😵💫
After that, I became anxious. I sat down on a bench and looked at the corner of the house, behind which was the street through which I had to go in order to move towards the house. Music was noisy there, people were shouting, there was a lot of light.
I sat and silently looked there, and only one phrase was spinning in my head: “I will not go there. I can not".
Anxiety increased and I did not know how to calm myself. I asked myself why am I so angry?
And I started to get even angrier.
Then I had a pinched nerve between my lower back and my left buttock.
I wanted to cry. But I decided to go home.
Walk for about 40 minutes. I could not take the bus. At that moment, people scared me. I passed through a crowded street and came out on a quieter one.
All the way I watched my breathing and tried to calm down.
After about 20 minutes I stopped at a traffic light and I managed to relax. I felt my body, it was very heavy, I felt how my thin, fragile neck was holding my body, as if it had been suspended.
I looked at one point and did not move. And then I almost passed out right on the pavement.
When I came home, I went to the shower and tried to understand for a long time what it was? 😞
