**It is 318. day since I had my last sex** I am laying in a..
Added 2023-07-30 17:08:36 +0000 UTC**It is 318. day since I had my last sex** I am laying in a hammock. Feeling soft and alive. Got a nudge to share few words before I start to continue on reading a book about Kundalini tantra :) *in seeking for insights to better understand my own process of kundalini awakening, which is very strong over a month now.* Words are not enough to capture depth of my experience of past weeks. Lots of body shaking, deep emotional and trauma explorations/releases, and waaay more... I am in recent days reconnecting with very dear friend of mine. He is the person I had my last sexual encounter with (those 318 days ago). Last person I fell in love with for a bit year ago. ... We are not sexual this time. But words can't put him into box. ... He is not a friend, not a lover, not a brother... But same time he is all of it and even more. Words can't comprehend.... The things which are surfacing through our connection are equal to the ones in romantic relationship. Actually in this case beyond that. ... Mirrors to each other.... I feel endless love, deep trust and gratitude for receiving so much of unconditional love from another human being. It is healing each of my cells. And even it feel so unique and there is strong connection. I don't know when the day we will split come. But one day he will go. Probably soon. ... In that I hope I will just keep tears of love and gratitude. I am alive. I love. I feel like I still need my time out of technologies (- phone, laptop) to process everything which is surfacing from depths of my being. And ground in my kundalini experience. .... Till than I will approach internet world only very gently (like I did in past month) Thank you so much for being with me. For your love. And appreciation. It means a lot to me ✨ Big hug And lots of Love to you ♥️
