hide and seek rich day behind me. I cooked jasmani rice wi..
Added 2022-09-13 09:09:06 +0000 UTChide and seek rich day behind me. I cooked jasmani rice with love. I took a lesson of driving car and did not freak out. I felt very present with myself as I didn't for a while. I have a old old trauma and fear of cooking. I have pattern in mind which is telling me I am a bad cook and that I can't cook (result of dad's criticism). This believe is taking away from me all joy and art of this area of human experience. … So I am learning to be more present and loving with my food. And from that heart space food is again becoming an art. And I am it's creator and appreciator. I have driving licence for 10 years, but I never really drive since got it. I was f0rced to make my licence even I didn't want to. I cried a lot when I was attending lessons during highschool. And my best rides were when I was slightly dru*k (…upsie.) … So now, after ten years, I bought a car from my dearest friend (@sadie.love) and start to learn how to drive again. To become bit more adult and self-sufficient. (As I am living in an area where public transport doesn't really exist). To get some freedom in movement. The fact I am finally making steps to become a driver made me cried in happiness today. I love myself. I am learning about love. I love you Hope you are having present day <3
