Visiting my family and I feel like a teen again having to sn..

Visiting my family and I feel like a teen again having to sneak off if I want to jerk-off. It's funny, 11 years ago to the date is when I lost my virginity. I had finally got a bf at 17. He was 24. I wasn't out to my parents yet at that point (and was still in high school) so at night I would put my pillows in the shape of a person and cover my blankets. I made it look like a fake version of me. I was pretty good at it. I would then wait until my parents fell asleep and sneak down to the basement. There in the basement we had a storm door that I would sneak out of and brush my footprints away in the snow with each step (to hide the evidence) My boyfriend at the time was really sweet and I let him know I was finally ready to go all the way, he had set up candles and everything in his bedroom so it was romantic. I remember the first time I bottomed, not gonna lie it hurt. It really hurt. But then each time after it hurt a little bit less and less (as we all know). But that first time my ass was in pain. I had a virgin hole and he was slowly opening me up on Christmas Eve while my parents were asleep. I wanted to experience my first time all the way so when I could tell he was getting close I pulled him closer (my hole hurting with each gentle thrust of his cock) and is said, "cum in me". It was my first time ever uttering those words but the second I said it I felt a pulse of his dick. It throbbed up even harder than before and what were gentle pumps instantly changed to a full thrust forward in my hole. He was all the way inside me now, all my reservations about letting him in were gone and his dick was all the way inside me. I think at this point my moans of pain were turning him on because he began to pump faster and harder. But all on my mind at this point was getting to experience cum filling me up. A feeling I had always envisioned since first seeing porn. I took it. I let him fuck my ass as hard as he wanted, I didn't care I was a virgin. I didn't care I was in pain. All I cared was that he was about to cum. I remember he started huffing and grunting more, I knew that meant he was close. He then grabbed my hands and showed me how to open my ass up more for him. The second I took both my hands on my cheeks and opened my hole up for him, he rammed his cock right and GRUNTED like a caveman. And I felt everything! His warm seed exploded inside of me and it felt like heaven. Everything I had ever wanted. It was late and he had to sneak me back home. My parents were going to wake up soon. So I arrived at my house, snuck into my house and woke up the next morning to open presents with my family...all while having my first ever load inside me