Hi everyone! My dentist sent me this before and after photo of my teeth. The bottoms are pretty bad though you can’t see them well here. As some of you know, I opted to get veneers after a long, long battle with bulimia; my teeth were so weak they were constantly chipping and eroding, on top of losing their shape and looking strange due to so much dental work. I am so happy I did this, I love my smile now. My teeth feel strong and healthy and I feel like I can continue to heal and find my confidence. I’ll never be able to cure my Body Dysmorphia and I know that, but I can make decisions to make me feel stronger and healthier.
Thank you for being here and supporting me. If you have any questions, please feel free to ask.
Hello! Here’s some pics I didn’t get a chance to post. I’ll be traveling to England tonight and hopefully will have some exclusive pics or even video for you guys!! 🖤
I know last month I asked if everyone was okay with me upping the price a dollar, but I decided not to make any changes right now. Maybe in the future, as I get bolder and up my photo quality. Thank you for the continued support, both in tips and in kind comments.
Decided that this is the only place I really want to talk about/document this. Last week, I got new teeth. No, really. I got new teeth.
Well, technically, right now I am wearing temporaries but in a couple weeks, I’ll get the porcelains in.
As some of you know (most of you, I suspect), I had an eating disorder for many years, bulimia, meaning I was purging my food a lot. It became addicting to the point where I could not stop myself from throwing up, and even though I took care of my teeth the best I could, they did weaken significantly, and started to chip. And I mean I could be eating a piece of BREAD and they would chip. I decided I wanted to put all of this behind me, and get veneers. Not a full mouth, just few on the top and bottom to bring my smile back and strengthen my smile, because my teeth were so week that the veneers are actually reinforcing them.
I struggled with this at first. My BDD was very flared after the temps were put in, wondering if I still looked like myself. But as I looked at them, I loved them more and more. They are extremely uncomfortable, as most temporary things are but I only need to endure them for a couple weeks. I also had cavities and had those filled. Basically, my day at the dentist ended up being nearly 7 hours. But I am happy. The decision helped me to put some ugly memories behind me, makes me smile more, and the most important thing? It deters me away from relapsing. It’s time to care about my body. Being thin wasn’t worth it. There’s so much more to life than that, and healthy teeth that don’t chip on some yoghurt is part of that.
If you have any questions, I am happy to answer. Here’s some progress pics. I RARELY smile with teeth so I hope you know that this is HIGHLY exclusive, hah! Also added: A sweaty picture of myself in red lipstick. Look, it’s been hot in Chicago.
Hey all, I am SO sorry for the lack of pictures this week. Unfortunately, on Monday, I got extremely sick and landed myself in the ER. Horrific experience there, then went to urgent the next day. Today I am feeling better but not 100%. Don’t worry though, I’ll just have to hit it hard on my next update. Thank you for your patience and your support, always.
Something a little different for you guys today: Posting pics I don’t like. I take a lot of photos for my exposures that I deem “too gross” to post. I’m going to post those photos to challenge myself and though some are not the best or most flattering, I hope that some of you can relate to what I am feeling. No make up, questionable angles, etc.
On another note, I might raise my monthly price up a dollar; OF does take a pretty hefty percentage, even from tips, more than another other platform I am on. Hope the dollar doesn’t throw anyone too much.
AMA (Ask me anything) TATTOO EDITION! I have provided as many pictures of my tattoos as I have that I think look okay, hah. You can ask me anything you want: About pain level, aesthetic, what they mean, least/most favorites, or anything else you can think of. And if you don’t have any questions, then you can just admire the artistry of these amazing artists. Leave a question in the comments and I will slowly get around to all of them, I hope!
Hey all! Sorry for the brief disappearance, I was out of state for a wedding and haven’t had the chance to update any of my thingies. I will have to make up for it double time over the next couple days. In the meantime, here are my tattooed legs, enjoying a bath.
So I decided to buy a “nude” bra for a dress that has some sheer parts at the top and guys… this is NOT my color. Or my size, as I am bursting out of it.
Now taking suggestions on what to do with the nude bra.
Hey all,
I’m sorry I’ve been a little quiet these past few days. Sometimes it’s really hard to post certain pictures, not due to anxiety from comments or anything of that nature, but from my own, BDD brain. Sometimes I can’t find the strength to take pictures, but today I found some, and a little less censored one at the end.
Thank you always for supporting me on this journey. It’s challenging, but rewarding (for me and hopefully for you too, heh heh.)
I will also be doing an AMA on my tattoos on here in the next day or so, so stay tuned! (Pics of tattoos will be included so you don’t need to scour my IG for them)
-Roses
Holy MOLY. My tattoos look fucking amazing when they are moist from the water.
I love tattoos, I love how I feel in them. Sexy, powerful, badass, ready to paint the town red (and when I say that I mean go thrifting for some PC adventure games).
Eventually I will do a tattoo tour but my journey isn’t over so I keep putting it off “until the next one.” Which I realize is pointless now, hehe.
Hey guys, sorry this post keeps getting messed up. I tried to post a photo of the letter inside the card from the CRI along with this spooky fit check, and didn’t realize text/writing pics are not allowed. In short, it says “Thank you for your generous donation.”
Thank YOU guys for helping to fight cancer while observing me attempt to conquer my BDD one thirst trap at a time.
Roses <3
