Have you ever faced a mental health problem? How do you feel about psychologists / psychiatrists?
Many of you with whom I have been in contact for a long time know that I have had mental health problems. I was depressed for 5 years. I went to the doctor for a long time.
💔 Once I had a breakdown. I went to the store to buy canvases before painting, and woke up on a bus in another city, and did not remember at all how it happened. I shared this with my friend, and for the sake of safety I moved to live with her for some time. I felt very bad then. I was constantly sad, nothing made me happy. It seemed to me that my life no longer makes sense.
📿I attempted suicide. I remember how I tied a rope around my neck and jumped off the chair. I don't remember anything further. I woke up on the bed, they beat me in the face,that i to wake up. I remember that there were thoughts in my head, but I don't remember which ones. It was like a drug bad trip.
🚑After that I was admitted to a psychiatric hospital, I stayed there for a month. After that I am still being treated by doctors. Now a year has passed and I feel good. I stopped taking pills a year ago. Because I thought they weren't helping me. I took up meditation and spiritual development. I think it helped me. At the same time, I went to a psychologist. And I still go to a psychiatrist once a month for an examination.
I am very glad that now I feel good. If you have something like this. Then don't be afraid to talk about it. I would like to support you and say that you can get out of this. This can be overcome. Just trust the world around you. If you really want to get rid of depression, then you will succeed. The universe will definitely hear you and give you strength. If you are sad now, I want to hug you ❤️
There will be a student protest all over my country today. All students will take to the streets and demand the fulfillment of our conditions. Therefore, today there will be trouble with the Internet again. The authorities turn off the Internet so that people cannot get together, so that would not be able to follow what is happening.
Tomorrow there will be a Sunday protest (it happens every Sunday). All people will go out and demand the fulfillment of our conditions. There will be many detentions again 😔 Again the police will use force😡 but this is nothing. We are not afraid! We will go out to the last and will fight for our freedom and democracy! I'll be careful 🙂
See you on Monday. Have a great weekend everyone! 🤍❤️🤍
And so, I began to channel all my energy into calligraphy. Later I learned about a style like calligraffiti. This is the same calligraphy using a wide brush, more like Arabic calligraphy. I liked it and I settled on this style.
Anyone familiar with my art knows that I love space, and at some point in my life I woke up and realized that I wanted to try something similar. I painted nebulae, starry sky, camets, and planets. Then I decided to combine two styles of space and calligraffiti. But again, I didn't get any satisfaction from my work. I knew for sure that I would find my own style and myself in this, you need to be patient a little.
👩🏼🎨 The most important thing in my art is colors. I always focus on color. Through color I convey my mood, my emotional state and experience. The color in my works speaks about everything that I can experience at this moment. I love mixing colors. And I started doing it using the fluid art technique. If you only knew how many damaged canvases and nerves are on my room 😂 Of course, nothing worked for me, everything was not right. And I dropped it again for a year. While I was not drawing, I studied techniques on the Internet, watched videos, and did some work as an experiment.
📝 And then one day I found the perfect formula for myself, the perfect style. I remember this day and this work. I was so happy and so proud of myself. I rarely like my work. But now I am enjoying the process, I am so passionate about it. Of course, I don't always succeed and I'm nervous, but it doesn't matter. I've come a long way. And I finally found myself. And I am extremely grateful to all of you for supporting me and showing interest in my art. After all, this is all that I have. ❤️
I not painted for a very long time. When I was 18 years old, I met a guy who drew and wanted to start tattooing. He introduced me to his company. And we started spending a lot of time in tattoo studios.
Due to the fact that I was constantly in this environment, I started painting again. I Tried different styles, but I didn't succeed 😔 I understood that I wanted something else. I understood that it was not mine. One day, I found a pen for calligraphy and ink, and decided to try writing calligraphy. It didn't work very well.
To do calligraphy you need good, special tools that were not sold in my country. I decided to take a calligraphy course to learn more about it. As it turned out, the courses in my country were also not very good, so I didn't get any experience from this.
Then I began to learn how to write calligraphy on the Internet, using videos from YouTube. I figured out the instruments and ordered them from Russia. I wrote up tons of paper, I think 🤔 I spent many hours at my desk. But I didn't get the desired result. I felt the ups and downs, my desire to paint swayed like a swing🤪
And one day my mom paid me an online calligraphy course. It’s was a present for me ❤️ 📜They sent me homework videos by mail and I did them. They talked in detail about the tool, about paper and many life-hacks for calligraphy. It was a very good calligraphy course. I felt my drawing level was increasing and I began to sign postcards, write letters, and rewrite poetry with pen and ink 📚
Well, I'll tell you a little about my painting life. ✍🏼
I have always loved to draw, since childho0d, and all my life I have been in search of my own style. In elementary school, I attended drawing courses for childrEn, I like it. And when I was very little, I really liked to draw household items such as a vacuum cleaner or a washing machine 😂 it probably sounds strange, but I can show you my children'S drawings somehow if you want?
My grandparents worked at the “Belarus Film studio” and very often I came to their work and saw how cartoons were created, so as a childd I liked to draw cartoons, probably like all children :)
Sometimes, when my grandma sat in a chair and watched TV, I sat on the floor with a sheet of paper and a pencil and painted her portrait. I also remember that we had a hand-painted plate hanging in our kitchen, flowers were depicted on it and I loved to draw them while my grandma was preparing dinner ❤️
When I got older (12-13 years old) I like graffiti style and i tried to paint on the walls and on paper, but for some reason I soon gave up drawing for a long time...
To be continued...
P:S Give me your ❤️ Please, if you interested my life story about drawing 🥰
PP:S By the way, how do you like my new panties? 😂
👋🏽Guys, hello everyone. I'm here. Yesterday, due to the fact that the police again used vi0lence towards the protesters, pensioners came out to protest, hoping that the police would not touch them. But you will not believe, they threw stun gren@des and gas directly into the crowd of pensioners who had only flowers in their hands !!!
Therefore, today the whole country and I also went out again to support our grandparents, so I could not appear here. Now I am so tired and I want to sleep 😪😴
❤️I hope your day went much better :)
❓What would you like, what would I tell you tomorrow? Any ideas?
I devote a lot of time to how I look, (in terms of clothes) I choose my outfit for a very long time. I have very few things, I am constantly combining them. I have 3 shirts, 3 hoodies, 3 pairs of pants, some black and some white T-shirts in my wardrobe.
In addition to all this, I really love order, everywhere, in everything, I am a perfectionist. My tableware are arranged by size and color, my T-shirts are also arranged by color, so are my shoes.
My desktop is empty on my computer, and everything on my phone is organized into folders. I always clean my inbox and personal correspondence, not because I hide something, but because I hate seeing a mess. I love that everything is clean, in all shelves, in all closets. My paint cans are also in arranged by colors and sizes.
And in my fridge, each product is on its own shelf, and if someone breaks this harmony in my space, they can very much regret it! Only I myself can breaks it 😂
Hello! I want to tell you a little about life in Belarus now. I think you are aware of our political situation now.
People in my country are fighting the regime that our president built during his 26 years of rule! You can read the very reason on the Internet.
For the past two months we have lived in fear. We go to j@il for literally everything! Every Sunday thousands of people gather in the street and protest! I go too. Unfortunately, I don't say much about this because it is dangerous. At any moment police can come to my house and take me away because I do not agree with the state ideology🙊
So that you understand the whole absurdity, every weekend in our country they turn off the Internet so that people cannot get together. Almost all journalists have been deprived of their accreditation and almost all of them are in j@il. Almost everyone is in prison and is constantly abused! from children to old people. They beat us with truncheons almost to death.
🚓 Every weekend I run from police and water cannons. Sometimes you can hear shots and explosions of grenades. Very often I cannot access the Internet due to its disconnection. A lot of people are listed as missing.
You can just walk home from the store, and police car will drive up to you and take you to j@il. So when people see the police they just run away. Many are fired from their jobs simply for their civil position. Many are fleeing the country 😞
I hope that soon it will end and we will live in a free and democratic country :)
❓Do you agree with the ideology of your state? Do you feel free?
