Aaaaaaayyyyeeeeee!!! Some sessi pics for everyone 🥲 hi 👋 thanks for joining and or resubbing, I’m stoked! This is def my 15th post saying I have to make a tip menu 😂 so I just finished packing and shipping what I could, and have time to be able to put everything together somehow in a manner you guys would understand it lolol cause I have such suchhhh obscure folders of content I don’t even know how to advertise them 😂 if anyone has any idea that has most of them let me know since you know the insanity the folders are 😆😆😆
Week five of my Invisalign j think I’m going too fast cause I don’t eat normal, they want me to wear thjs hndisturbed for 22 hrs a day and I have to take it out every time I wanna eat and my eating habit is like a bite of something every hour lolol so it’s either I don’t fucking eat or I have to take the Invisalign slower 😆
GAIZZZZZ!!! I have good news but idk news but maybe good news? I got accepted for a touring art festival that’s coming here but IN TEN DAYS 😬 I am only allowed ten pieces (first two are free and if I want 8 more I pay $120, but whatever i make of i sell anything I keep 100% which is cool) but I make like everything from tiny things to big things and it’s hard to figure out wtf to bring if I’m only allllwd ten things lol I was thinking maybe do a barcode style of long pieces behind me in a rly pretty rainbow and you’re allowed to sell prints out of vine as long as it doesn’t cover your art on the wall… it’s complex and it’s first come first serve with where you set up so I have to be super fuckjng prepped and I’m not sure if I can take this on lmfao
I NEED ENCOURAGEMENT 🤣🤣🤣🤣😭😭😭
Anyways I love you guys it makes me super happy to tell you aboht my exciting things now that there is something to look forward to… but j don’t wanna panic about it hahaha I just am a perfectionist with cohesiveness so that’s gona be the hard part 😅
Ohheyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!! Photo dump hehe cute red shirt I got custom made I’ll take way more pics in 🥰 two crosses listed on my site too!!! And me in hobby lobby 😎🤣😂😂
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So I am on the right track with getting my brain out back together LOL been trying to get a Timelapse done a day and succeeding woooo!! Next step is live hahaha turn that jntk a hopefully everyday thing again!!! On Instagram and try to wrangle peeps here so I can do whatever i want and show boobies while I paint LOL more freeeeedom!
I think I figured out a way how to make a tip menu too! I’ll be doing that today and organizing things to let you guys know what I have, there’s a hard drive with all my webcam photos on it from 2011-2014 in storage LOL so everyone who got the pre cam webcam pic folder always will have access to it and will see when I add more! 🥰
So far there’s i don’t remember I think like 450 pics from before I cammed every session from 2016-2019 ish!!! Tip $66 for it and like I said you’ll see stuff get thrown in all the time when I find more bc holy terabytes of shit everywhere scattered LOL
I GOT A NEW MIC TOOO I think I said that Lmfao 😂 gonna mess with it but I need a pre mic gain program thing like audition or something
If anyone knows what I’m talking about shoot a comment 🤣
Oh and I thank everyone humbly that snagged the ppv clip yesterday 🥲🥲🥲🥹🥹🥹
Today marks three years since I became a lizard 🤣👻👻 wanted to make another post bc I fell asleep on and off ALLL day yesterday 🤪😭😭😭😭 havin really bad crashes and idk when they’ll stop but today I dozed up on my fifth week with the Invisalign and this bitch HURT lol so I been trying to get through some head painz but posting some oldies from one of the many vault folders I have of content over the ten years hehe still trying to figure out how to make a tip menu 😭😂 but everyone who resubbed and has their auto renew on or is a new sub imma be sending a dope folder tooooo!
And thank you guys who tipped for the goal, it meant alot 🥲 gonna get you back in a message soon I drank coffee so I’m wired for half an hr LETS GO LOL 😂
Hiiiiii 🙈 I think I’m slowly crawling out of this hole I’m in woooooooo lol today I’m a bit overwhelmed with sounds especially tho, but I got my meds, and painted like a motherfuxker yesterday haha sorry I wasn’t hereeee!!! I def will go live in here this weekend
My goal is to get back to posting daily again like my Timelapse’s that I used to do and stopped doing when I got stupid depressed lol but I have great light, I bought a new mic and want to try starting up my YT again I have like 2000 watch hours which I need 2000 more to get monetized and get the ability to have a tip option! That’s all I care about rly hahahah cause it’s like $1 every 1000 views and I can’t even with that 🤣🤣🤣🤣
How is everyone todayyyy!!!!! Will be sending a hawt dm to all auto renew peeps after I reply to everyone! If I miss you, just send me another message cause my inbox gets jacked up when I send mass messages lol
Here’s my newest videoooooo lapse! It’s pride month ❤️🧡🧡💚💙💜 so next color will be 🧡🥰
My jawwww!!! So I’m waiting to get an itemized list for the cost of thjngs and my dad is probably going tk have me make a go fund me again 😔 kinda fucked since this is his responsibility he left me for ten years like this but I need tk get the fuck out of here and jntk a house so imma have to subject myself to the gnarly hate I will be getting again for making another one… even if I have proof of a bill I’ll still get called a liar lmao 🙂 the fact of the others I’ve made in the past were all last kin get me out of here situations, whom were the product of other men I was dating or when j got trapped in Berlin and couldn’t get back home before my visa expires lol ugh 😑 I appreciate the fhck out of everyone who has ever contributed to those, I would be dead rn if I never left Berlin 💀
A year and a half sober nowwwwwww 🥰
Boop heyyyyyy 💖 Have a boobie 😎
because I’ve been trying to pull myself out of this hole of depression, I have a self goal that I rly would like to try my hardest to get back to 4% by the end of the month 🥺 I just keep going up and up and I don’t know if it’s my lack of posting, or something 😔 I posted less other months and it hasn’t been this hard to stay afloat on here as it is at the moment
Three out of five posts I wrote up got deleted without telling me why, and never reinstated so I’m just def trying my very hardest n I feel defeated bc when I do try I get shut down and silenced for legit no fucking reason. 🥺
Speaking of defeated, my best friends surgery didn’t go well, they couldn’t reach the tumors in his bladder and have to do it all over again which like why didn’t they know what tool to use if they knew where they were in the first place? Fuckkng ridiculous I have been rly sad about that and been feeling his feels 😔
anyone who tips $16+ for this goal will bebsent somrthkng wicked i KNOW none of you have 🥳 getting even half close to it would make my month ❤️🩹or art! let me know your preference, 🥲
My Invisalign is doing good I’m at like week four! But i have a psych appointment today and they have been fucking with my medication saying I couldn’t pick it up when It was due so they just cold turkey me off my meds and tell me to go to urgent care when I told then I was feeling withdrawals like the fuck kind ofdoctor tells their patient to just to go the hospital when they know damn well that nothing will be done to help me there lol so my dad is coming with today and is going to chew them tf out 🤣 will keep you updated lolz I might secretly record it bc when my dad pops off it’s no joke 😂
Very unedited car video to say hi and sup and lost my nipple ring lolol 😭 can’t send it bc it’s too large I need wifi hahaha waiting for mmj dude to find me and had to get kratom, the goal to contribute for pain management is in my last post 🥹
It’s been an even harder past couple days for some reason, I don’t know what my brain is doing but I seem to be self destructing because of the lack of privacy and a lot of rly ungood thoughts are flooding into my head, I would never do what my mom did and be a coward like that but it’s been on my mind only bc I can’t do my art anymore without privacy, I’ve been doing stuff yeah but the time it takes it’s like five times longer to do everything because of the distraction of living and working in the living room of someone else’s home, def the worst mental breakdown I’ve ever had yesterday
Still sober tho lol the desire I have to drink has flatlined permanently
I thought I was an addict and I feel I still am but I haven’t craved it or even thought about it in months and months and months. Never thought that would happen lol
Let’s try to post my huge post that got deleted again
Paragraph by paragraph because look at how they’re not telling me why or what I did to have them delete my message
Legit I’m really upset over this and think I might move to fAn$$$$$$L y (literally scared to type anything now) you guys see how many fuckjng stupid words are restricted here like elevennnnnn through seventeeeeeeeen you can’t say but if you’re just talking about seventeeeeeen bananas you’re fucked
This is what’s happening rn I was talking about my painting and art and my fucking way of life that I always have shared with you guys
There was so much to that I to get told just to read the terms after they take 20% what the fuck are you doing onlyfans. I can’t even and right whe. I thought this was a safe space they’re cracking down on even letting me link to my big cartel? Which I’ve always done,????
It’s been making me so depressed knowing I no longer have a “place” where I feel “safe” with my words and doing and saying what I want but apparently only place is fucking with me now too 😔 and I’m trying rly hard but do you guys thjnk ppl are leaving here? Going elsewhere? Cause it’s been hard to keep rank here, haven’t been able to reach any goal I’ve made in a long long time, putting this one up for my pain management, if you wanna contribute it goes towards helping that 🥲
I’m banned on Instagram indefinitely for standing up for myself on a post a guy wrote telling me to put on weight, but they didn’t delete his comment
Stories like this can go on and on and on And fucking on and I’m trapped to the internet. I don’t know how to survive without it because it it my living like a lot of people right no, that art space I missed because I didn’t see a resume was needed…. That’s coming up and I need all the good jujus for that bc living rent free for six months will insanely help me to focus on things I never could bc I was so tied to having to figure out my next move tk make $$, JVE been on survival mode since 2010 cause this is the most inconsistent job lol
And every single place I’ve tried to make $$$ besides my art has fucked with me (big cartel and the processors take 13% still but whatever lol) all of this fucjery is legit after I do camming??? After I was posting topless pic after topless pic and not getting shut for it? Why now all I wanna do is just enjoy making and posting my art 😔
I got half packed yesterday and had a breakdown because life is just getting to me rly bad. My best friend has surgery on the 7th to remove tumors from his bladder and please send good vibes they aren’t cancerous 🥺🥺🥺
Here’s a pic of this dope propagation station I made (last pic) and me lol 🙃 going to reply to messsages today if I don’t get locked the fuck out again
I hope you guys are okay I’m going to see if it was my BC link that triggered the deletion lol
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I’m terrified to post now on here since they won’t even give me the time of day I deserve to know what the fuck I breached and they ain’t telling me so I’m most likely going tk do it again bg accident and might be deleted this is fucked up
@onlyfans treat your creators better
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Yeah anyways I have shirts up now I can’t Link 😔 j don’t want to even be on my phone right now bc the one place i felt sincerely okay and safe to post now I am being silenced… the ONLY place that I had left on the internet to express myself
I can’t anymore
(I rly hope this posts bc yesterday they locked me out of my whole account)
you wanna see what this stupid fucking site did yesterday? because i asked if you guys wanted to take a quiz....they fucking deleted my whole entire post and i wasnt allowed to post at all anymore, i dont even know if this will go through so test lol but uhhh,,,idk when this policy happened....and im kinda heartbroken right now. I used this platform to show you guys my art first, to talk about new stuff i posted or am making, not just bout my personal life...and now im being literally fucking silenced for trying to promote my fucking art, im rly hurt, confused, because this was my safe space and now in the last week ive gotten flagged for complete fucking BULLSHIT and i love LOVE how they NEVER tell you WHAT you did, they make you scour through all the TOS to find the one thing you think it might be, its so fucked. fuck you onlyfans and fuck your customer service..like she wont even tell me what it was i posted that triggered the deletion, so i cant even count on me not doing whatever it is again, ill try to reply to people again today
bro what the hell onlyfans, good thing I had saved what I wrote on a notepad bc I still had the window open on my phone.. what exactly does this violate I. The acceptable use policy???
this took me two hours to type up and fucking no chance to save, they just delete for WHAT REASON?and they dont even give me a reason why except say rudely to LOOK AT THE RULES, is that really how you want to treat your employees @onlyfans 😥😥😥😥😥 jeez
Anyways I uploaded a fuck ton of shirts and wanted to share with you guys first
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Am I not allowed to share my art now? Because if that’s the case I’m fucked lol
Hai 🥲🥰 I need to take 2829832 pics of dis new shirt drop, and lots and lots of messages to reply to, I’ve been trying to play catch up for it feels like ten years butt never able to really catch up lol so pls don’t take it personally if I can’t reply right away or forget, I haven’t had a like REAL break away from social media in years and years and years bc it’s my job and I sometimes wish I could just be like byeeeeeee and live in the woods and never see anyone again lol
That’s mean haha 😆 you guys are awesome and I appreciate every single one of you to my core 🫶🥹 and for that imma send everyone a dm of an awesome folder of stufffff (if you already have it lmk in a comment on this post, I’ll see it faster) and I’ll send you a diff content folder you don’t have 🥰
This month I was way behind my monthly goal on here, I guess I didn’t post enough pussy 🤣🤣🤣 but this goal will reach it, and i will fucking cry lol 😭 may is the hardest month for me mentally every single year, so it would be a balance with all the terrible feels and things that’s happened this month, and I will send you the spicy pix I take between shirts right now I’m about to shoot 😚 there’s like 17 of em heh
Oh and 25% sale on my site with code FUCKPUTIN Until midnight, all peepl in here that place an order lmk in the notes when you checkout and you’ll get something xxtra sent 🥲
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Sending some pics at sone point to everyone in a dm 😻 cause I took a lot and liked a lot and wanna share them all but only if you wanna see them 🙈😌 heh
I’m about to paint and Omgggg used that chameleon paint and it was fuckkng insanity it’s so beautifullllllllllllllll
I’m trying to motivate myself but yeah it’s been hard, just don’t want people to see every post of mine as a negative, but I can’t happy face shit anymore it’s so disingenuous and I’m rly transparent so it doesn’t work usually lol but I think I’ll feel a little better when I get this new listing over with like 18 new shirts and paint some beforehand
I heart you guys 🫶 all new peeps that have come here past few days look out for a dm as well hehe thank you so much you fuckin be rad 😍😍😍😍
MORNING!!!!!!!!!!! Pinning this post for all new peeps bc it looks like i have barely content on here, but that's bc for the first two years i was archiving and saving things after a month when i set them to expire. I have a folder for every month (some are combined bc i was inactive lol) but on top of that i have folder on top of folder of content from threee vault folders, newest vids, vault vids, b/g vids and clips, a TON of music... idk how to even make a tip scale thing loolool all my content over 10 years is def over $1k if i were to add it up how i sold them individually lol message me if theres something youre interested in or want! <3 replying to people soon and heres the very last shoot i did with jesse that i rly fucking hated but was like ehhhhokay now LOL
If you want the rest of this set, tip $10 <3 and ill give you the biggest virtuual hug everrrrr heh <3
Here’s more pix lol I’m on my phone now 🙃 me with my paint because fuck yes LOL and me and sal and an unboxing video of a ton of shit that I got from fluid art co they sent to me cause I told them I packed all my pigments and they gave me WAY a lot idk where to put all of it bc there’s liken20 bottles of other things that aren’t in this vid 🤣 and a spicy pic hehe I’m currently making bout to 20 shirts LOL but bout to paint bc it’s getting dark and I rly need to put dividers up and close myself off and just focus
It’s so hard thk when like I have to live and work and sleep and everything In the living room.. I returned tha bed tent bc I needed space for plants for the summer to bring inside LOL
My dad needs to find a house asap bc his lease is ending in July like wtf and I absolutely cannot handle another year here which is what I feel is going to happen he’s not taking initiative to rly look and I don’t have the time to spend on that when most of my day is spent now mentally on his presence and how my thoughts just seize and I can’t do anything, I need a room and like full privacy I can’t live with people I def have a panic issue with that haha having to share a bathroom is also killing me bc there’s a door that opens to his bedroom too besides the one I go thru and he told me to not lock it bc it’s broken so it’s rly fucking wack yoooooo tjrjjjdjdjjdd I have money saved but it legit will be enough for like two months of living without going into survival mode Lmfao send good vibes of like beaming me 🆙 to fuxkin space lol yeeeeeet 🚀🛸🛸🛸🛸 I just want to come out of this pit I’m in right now where I can’t communicate with anyone at all, i rly appreciate everyone’s patience with messages I know sometimes it takes me awhile, and I’ll get to everyone’s’ recent ones too. There’s a few small custom things I have to do as well, lots I feel behind on but you can’t rush arttttt!!! My pace is just so slow right now lol 🐢
EEP! New peeps check dms soon <3 haiiii!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL AFTER ALMOST TWO YEARS of it being out of stock my OG pillow paint is backkkkkk, it more expensive but whatever i can do EVERI COLOR EVER NOW for a background hahahah
Im on my computer so i might have a ton of typos even after spell check lol fuck this keyboardddddd, i still have all of these printsd tho (theres 4!) Tip $50 for one i will sign for uuu <3 (the goal on this post is for these, or whatever hahaha)
I need to find my hard drive with stuff on it from 2010-13ish but i have the folder ready rn for my webcam pics too! theres like 500 somethin atm from three years, and ill keep adding to it, youlll have the link forever so you will have access to the new stuff i find for upload there!
Its basically every time i would cam i took pix w my webcam to post before logging, and its a gold mine :P i think i talked about it a few days ago, i forgot how much to tip for it if i even said lolz
Ive been a bit like really fucking withdrawn lately, and im sad bc my best friend left, we had a rly good time together minus the morning i didnt have kratom and almost died lol but he drove to my place and picked up some and came back i cried bc hes rly thoughtful :') and i miss being around someone im comfortable around, like im back in this VERY tense environment where im constantly being drilled, asked questions, followed around, watched, listened to, i used to communicate with voice messages and kinda just stopped alot of that and have turned into even more of a shell yay hah i need to be alone so bad :'( Dont know what to do considering im def going to be trapped here bc no possible way to afford anything esp with this 100K fucking jaw reconstruction
I feel like in a mind prison again and its so much worse than i thought it would be.. pls send hug, good vibes, i left this to say last bc its affecting me greatly and i dont know what to do so i dont want to rant bout it :{
Sent hawt pics to auto renew peeps 😼 look at my caladiums!!! And boobs heheheh
dude I just found this Reddit of me and idk what to thjnk bc there’s like 500’people on it lol I joined it and as soon as I did it went from 2 online to 36 LOL but idk if they’re getting these photos from here or just my twatter so it’s whatever but the w about my onlyfans annoyed me lol def post more than once a week bitch
I guess it’s not worth it bc I’m not fucking my self with something in every fuckjng post 🤷♀️ Fuckjng people lol I’m thankful for you guys, makes me feel like a person it’s a reassurance that I’m here n ppl wanna be here n see me as a person, thank you 🥲🥲🥲🥲
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This is the page lolol
Posting these here first bc eeeeeeeeeeeeeee 😻😻😻 oh shit Oh shit oh shit I’m super stoked about these and I’ve been meaning to add this cross for EVER lol 😂 we have been enjoying watching the trial but I’m bout to rubber band stuff to dye clothes wooooo!!! There’s 20 shirts 😹😹😹 oh yeah here’s the front of the house hahaha 🤣 and this dope ass faucet that comes out for like pasta and shit LOL and we had made aztec mask with clay and apple cider vinegar it makes your face so sawft 😋😋
Replies to everyone when I get back home, just wanting to take a break for a bit but still make art and post here to say hi on here and share stuff heh
I’m posting on ig and but gonna send all auto renew peeps all the pics from the “set” bc I liked them all for once 😆😆
Woooooo dude you guys gotta see this fuckin air bnb!!!!! It’s gonna be ours for everytime we come here if they don’t raise the price haha it’s only $67/night with a $1200 cleaning fee Lmfao we have tonight and tomorrow left and gonna make shirts today bc their kitchen is amazing everything is amazing Ahahahaha I just don’t wanna get dye anywhere 😬🤣🤣
We did clay masks and ate gummies even tho my jaw is fucked I can’t resist a good gummie that isn’t hard to chew and holy shit these were the bomb, found at Ross! Lol!
I kept saying I have tk update you guys yesterday but I legit can’t brain I just seize to exist functions when people are around Lmfao he’s sleeping right now but I wanna say I love you guys and thank you for being here
I really needed a break like this and it feels so nice to be away from family or the unresolved trauma my dad and I both have, it’s draining to the coreeeeee so this feels so so good
Oh and of course I’ll take outside pic hahaha bc that’s the dopest 🥰
Speaking of dope o got a shirt at goodwill that says GOD IS DOPE lololol we have 20 shirts
Shits gonna get real today hahaha you guys get first dibs on them !!! See last two pics for what in listing today, coffin is a lippped rolling tray
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First time I did fucking makeup in like month and a half? LOL WUT IS MEEEEEEEEEE but I felt kewt and well enough to take some hawt pix 🥴😹😹😹 check your inbox tmrw auto renew peeeeeps! 😉😉😍
And you guys look at this coffin rolling tray !!!!😛 listing it tomorrow ❤️🩹
OMG in a ppv msg I’m sending out is the absolute hawtest pic I’ve taken from below up, of my hip bones and pussy hehehehe
On week two with Invisalign and a long fuckkng road but I’m so excited to be able to eat again and enjoy it because jeeeeeez I can’t put weight on right now for the life of me 😭
MY BEST FRIEND IS COMING TOMORROW! we got the coolest air bnb for three nights just gonna hang out watch the trial and do art hehehee try to remember to take more pics cause we always forget lol 😆 I’m currently making him a shirt bc god he’s so insanely thoughtful and caring everytime I’ve seen him it’s like a whole ass Christmas of meaningful stuff LOL I am rly excited cause I need this break so bad and so does he, he has a major surgery when he goes back home and ngl I’m terrified but gonna be his 🪨
send good vibes if you feel you have them in you, he’s a huge empath and will feel them 🥰🥰🥰
I’m going to schedule a few posts because I totally ignore my phone and forget it exists when we hang out bahahahha I don’t want to be on phone while I’m with someone that came out to see me like I love being delved into whatever we’re doing! So just an fyi too for messages, replies prob won’t happen until I am alone in work mode again (he’s only here till Thursday bc my workaholic ass can’t even take a day off without panicking lolol) so I’ve gotten hella content doneeeee anddddddd…
🥳🥳🥳🥳I MADE A FOLDER! Bout 570 pics from my webcam taken before every Mfc sesh, it took hours to find them haha and I know there’s tons somewhere else I’m missing but if you tip for it you’ll have the link forever and will get updates as I add them when I find more 🥰🥰🥰
PRE MFC LOGITECH VAULT - we will call it that I guess hahaHAHAH 😂😂
Tip$ $100 if you want it!!!!
it’s probably the coolest gold mine for people that want to see all the looks I had for my cam sessions and will totally remember some of you’ve been with me in the years of 2015-2019
Gotta find the earlier ones cause I have them 🤣 ALOTTTTT of them in 2014 forsure somewhere lol
When I find more I’ll always be uploading them on the same link you’ll get to access whenever 🥰🥰
Promised auito renew peeps a message and never was able to even get to doing that so you guys are getting a BIG ONE right now hahahah ive been running around like a dead chicken bc my bff is coming tmrw and i just need to que and schedule posts so i stay relevant (so sad i just want a break but its impossible with sw lol) SOOOOOOOOO i took HOURS yesterday puttting together a folder of EVERYYYYY webcam pic, i took before each cam sesh. I think this is prob my biggest gold mine for people to collect bc theyre never seen photos (only a few have been shown) what i looked like and my makeup./outfit for evertime i went online!!!!!!!!!!!!! enjoy tons of weird random stuff ive found too <3 Here's a preview of what you would get, i had a TON of lewks i did for cam heh, trying to figure out price, let you guys know when i got the folder uploaded fully and know how large it will be <3
Will reply to messages rn, and sending out a few dms today to auto renew peeps so keep your eyes peeled O_O OMG and the first video is an interview i did at AVN in 2017, i had to record it on my phone so turn the volume up but good god i was alot of cocaineeeee LOOOLL
okie okye im typing dis with one eye openj LOL but heres some stuff i found (Im on my comp right now haha) I have SOOOO much shit like content wise/pre camming pics every single cam sesh, ALLLllll kindssss of shit i dont even know how i woulod categorize things hahahah cause theres SAlOt frokmmm camming for a decade xD I think one thing everyone doesnt have is my webcam pics i took before every cam sesh, so i shall make a folder of those (the ones i can gather and find scattered everywhere at least hahaa) here's an example of some when i was in my prime fun cam time dayzzz (like 2015/2016 heh)
Sending auto renew peeps a good mornin message when i awaketh <3 i feel a weight lifted
i know why, i shall explain tmrw hehehe lovesss uuuu
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lol my very first warning on here bc I didn’t have my friends identification verified for the photo even tho she’s fully covered 🤣🤣🤣 yay we have a snitch here
Welcome 🙂 thank you for your money 😆😆😆😆😆
Here’s what I’m about to listttt!!! Took all day to photo and edit and I gotta do UV pics still bc they glow hard hehehe 🤭
All peeps here get 10% off on all orderssss! Code is KOTAKREW10 🥰
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How are you guysssss??? I Got half orders packed and doing the other half right after listing these heh
I should rly do a my life in a day type of video because the mob I wake up to the min i go to sleep I’m working 😅😅 it’s amazing and it’s a dream to be able to do my art so thank you guys so so so much
It wouldn’t be possible to art without you 🥲🥲
Imma do makeup today and take pics that are of substance haha I just really appreciate you being patient with me needing a break from things content wise on here
I have a tonnnn of prior content made
Like a terabyte lol tip menu I’ll try to get done this week 😍😍
If I haven’t replied to you and you had a question or it was important pls msg me again! When I send mass messages things get mixed up super bad when I go back to reply to people after sending them 😁
ANYWAYS HAIIII!!! I’m looking at this space as a journal now, a journal of healing that you guys will get to witnessssss! It’s going to be a long gnarly fuckkng road haha but I’m INNIT 🤓 idk if I said this last post but the Invisalign is making me feel relief already????? Like it’s getting more and more relieving because there’s now a buffer and I don’t have tk rest my jaw on top of itself anymore which is EXHAUSTING, cause The lil ball joint that sits by your ear and temple is permanently pushed forward so my top and bottom jaw are stacked ontop 😭 but yeah this is def acting as a good buffer for the bones tk stop touching and I’ve been rly overwhelmed at the same time past couple days… I think I’m starting to believe it’s because there’s a new routine I have to stick to now, but the pain is so much less distracting than normal and I’m just thinking too much bc my brain has more space now 🤣
HOW ARE UUUU?? oh updates:: my stye went away:: makeup soon for the first time in a month but tip for new contact lenses hahaha (expired lenses was the perpetrator to my eyeeee gettin jacked lolol)
Uniqso.com you can have a say in a pair you would wanna see me innnnn!!!! 🤘😍 site may be confusing but lmk if you wanna see the 288283939292 options they have hahaha
I need to get a new set of dreads made too, it’s been a year and a half 😯 my dress maker is from Russia thk hahahah and they said they can still ship them but nothing incoming and idk if I trust that with how fast things are changing with the war right now haha POOTYYY has 🩸 cancer so it all makes sense now why he did this shit, and that’s the definition of evil
Like got nothing to lose so destroy as many lives as you can bc you are dying anyways 😑😑😑 I can’t wait to go with my bestie and my dad wants to gooo! To hell after the war heh
I’m typing this as I have no photo to post lmao 🤣 haven’t been too into muhhhself lately but I have tons of folders of stufffffff and def need to organize it and make a list hahah I like lists 🫠🤣
OH I FINALLY GOT THE FUCKING PLANT STANDDD AND PUT IT TOGETHER TODAYYYYY and died hahahahaga I’m rly nervous bout the lack of air flow in here and my dads inability to fucking feel that the air is fucked and broken unless it goes lower than 75 no circulation happens and he leave his house at fucking 82 in the summer like uhm what lol so I had to tell him off like dude that’s NOT NORMAL for someone to have their ac that high in the summer in arizona and I can’t live like that so he’s reluctantly letting me pay the difference
Why reluctantly I have no idea but that’s the stubborn annoying shit he does lol tried to make a tonnnn of logical reasons why something can’t happen and half of them aren’t logical 🤣
Okay my fingers hurt now hahahaha 😅🥹🥹🥹🥹 xoxoxoxox
Thanks for reading this if you got this far 😛😘🥰
Goal if if you wanna help wiff new dreadz//new lenses 🥰
Ahhhhhhhh goooood update 😎 sending a ppv of like a tiktok transformation xxx rated lololol 🤣🤘🥰🥰
I will get back to all messages as soon as I do something creative bc I totally ruined some pieces with varnish and kitty dust 😭
Second::: I GOT MY INVISALIGNNNNN it’s legit the very first step ever in thjs, I got to have them for 32 weeks, one a week, and the last two I wear for two weeks. I wish I had recorded the diagram of how my teeth are gonna move but it’s wilddddd and I’m not gonna jinx it but I think I already feel relief, it’s almost acting like a buffer to where the tissue has been lost and I’ve had to have both jaws just sit on top of each other, so I think??? In the side pics you can see how ridiculous my overbite is hahaha 🤣 This will be a massive help but the bill is massive LOL I’m getting itemized lists of everything idk I can’t get myself tk make another go fund me because of the past but j have to get over that because like I rly need help $$$ I don’t want my dad to have to take on the like 120k bill alone after having to give half his money to his ex for the next like ten years lolol fuckkng hell
But I’m rly thankful that this is happening and it never would have gotten started if it wasn’t for my dads help, I’m super nervous tho haha after this I need braces for like ten months and then the le fort and then braces again where they band them which is basically like wiring your jaw shut but not hahaha it just restrict the movement and they didn’t want to do that for me yet bc of how painful that would be 😬 I got hooked up with a dentist tho for a sedatation cleaning and cavity filling and I’m gonna feel soooo much better after that ahhh I haven’t gotten teeth cleaned in like six years Lmfao 😭 braces again after the le fort procedure and then the total joint replacement which I have tk prob go to the top surgeon dude in Texas cause he is the best in the world apparently haha and a state awayyyyyyy
Alsooooo I got a new bong woooooo! My dad broke the bowl piece last night tho 🤣🤣🤣 but it hits like a champ 💪 hahaha
How’s everyone’s weekendddd???? I’m going tk be packing and shipping and making some new stuff with sone new molds (see last vid heheh)
Doing a big update soon when I get alone time 🥰 The first step has begun pht if many but I can’t wait to share with everyone what’s going down, it’s extremely nerve wracking but I sincerely appreciate everyone that’s here with me through this 🥲🥲🥲
Here’s what I’m bout to list hehehe 🤭 been on and off the phone all day with docs because they’re all dumb as fuck and keep giving me wrong referrals lol I found one tho! Gettin a deep clean and all cavities filled at once while under Anesthesia and I have to like tell them all the shit they CANT DO to my mouth while I’m under cause one wrong move of it will cause my jaw to get insanely fucked up
I just now got used to the new pain that happened a few weeks ago from sleeping on my jaw wrong, ittis now a part of me lol insane ringing behind my ears that happens on and off all day
I haven’t posted shit on my platforms and rly am losing people, i don’t want tk be on the internet anymore lol and haven’t for years but I don’t have any choice bc it’s my income and way to survive so 🤷♀️ Wompwomp lol I like posting here tho, and I won’t stop doing so, so keep your auto renew on bc I feel imma just stray more and more away from social media 😅😬🥺
But i got my phone almost cleaneddddd and just waiting to get alone time to be able to shoot something of substance for you guys haha
Not getting alone time for six days in a row is pretty grueling mentally and I apologize if this month I don’t have too much good to say lol bare with me imma human 😆 I hope you all are doing awesome 🥰
Pls stand by oh my god 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 I’m at the finish line but holy shit that’s just the amount of pics and vid’s I’ve taken since the beginning of the year 🤣 I have tons and tons and tons of terabytes of shit haha I don’t delete anything I just hoard all my content and everything I’ve ever taken into externals and now mainly my google drive because I’ve had externals legit crash on me and I lost everything like four times 😂
HOW ARE YOU GUYSSS!!! I will take some new pix for my auto renew peeeeeeeps tmrw 😉
I finally painted yesterday toooo I have eight pieces I did they’re all rly different and I’m indifferent about most of them lolol I’ll show you guys first when I get good pics 🥰 thank you guyzzzzzzz for being here, means a lot to me and always will ❤️🩹 ❤️🔥❤️🔥❤️🔥
I ran out of my adhd meds so I’m having a stimulant crash and been sleeping in and off all fuckjng day lolol
I made this yesterday, but couldn’t post it because I just had a rly bad brain day yesterday.. wanted to reply to everyone and then just shut down mentally idk why, i think it’s cause I finally had alone time so I was able to just be in complete solitude and wanted to enjoy it, but i ended up not doing shit besides resin sone coasters I give out for free with orders, and a top coat in this cross that imma list today 🥰 and the start of moving my plants inside has begun hahaha luckily the whole patio is shaded so quite a bit of them I can keep outside but it feels so much ether in here with my plants, I feel safe 💝
….and happy Mother’s Day, pls call your mom and tell her you love her🤍
Its one mistake I regret forever, ignoring her on the last Mother’s Day I had with her. I was so fuckin selfish like Jesus, and I know now when people need someone, I can see the signs of them reaching out in ways others think is “annoying”
I have no clue how today is going to go but as soon as my dad woke up I just didn’t want to be around him lol didn’t say happy Mother’s Day (not like I’m expecting him to but it’s just adding to his dismissive feels about this whole thing) he wanted to take me out to eat today and I’m like Um
Thanks for the nice gesture but it is so fuckjng painful to eat and i hate how that’s legit the only thing people always think of when you have to find something to do, haven’t been out to eat in two or three? Years now.. with anyone. Lol 😆
I just want to close myself off and paint all day but I’ll feel bad about that, how the Fuck do I put on a happy face all day around him just to keep him in a good mood, he rly needs it because hes spent the last ten mothers days with the bitch that ruined his (and mine) life, so he rly needs to have a good day and idk what to do 😔 would be cool to go to a nursery but they’re all closed on sundays the ones I like
What plans do you guys have if anyyy??? If any of you ever need to vent or want an ear to listen about anythingggg.. you can always dm me, I might not get back immediately bc I can’t get push notifications hahaha but I will try to be more diligent with replies… if you message starting out with something that I will know is universal for all my peeps on here to say… like if it’s urgent and you need to talk to someone start the message like “can I talk?” Or something that will grab my attention that sounds urgent and I’ll do my best to be there ❤️🩹❤️🩹
I’ll be replying back to people now that I’ve been needing to respond to so hang tight 💘
Eeee gonna send a couple fishnet pics to da auto renew peeps here soon 😛🥰 thank you for bein patient with my inconsistency too lol 😆 but I’m tryin to get to a balance, it’s hard tho when you don’t have an assistant and do everything on your own like everything 😂 idk when I’ve taken a whole day off of work (from taking pics to just thinking about work stuff in general) I’m def excited to have a paint seshhhhhh right now! I wish I could go live but I’m going to tomorrow bc my dad gonna be the hell out of here and go on work hahahaha yayyy finally all day alone so I’m def gonna take pics and try to organize my NSFW stuff better heh I don’t wanna do it while he’s here and have him come out 🤣🤣🤣😂
Lol oh and I have a ton of shirts Leftttttt!!!! Gonna do a 10/off code for OF peeps only 🥰🥰🥰 enter
KOTAKREW10 at checkout hehe if anyone gets em I want it to be any of you and you totally can take and send me pics when you get it tooooo I would so love that 🥰🥰🥰🥰
Update mini? Heh I’ve been just so enveloped in this case and finally amber is testifying and I am rly disgusted at the fact that she’s definitely faking everything and rly is an insult to like actual dv survivors, the elaborate lies she’s making up I can’t evennnnnnn
Here’s the one rn I’m watching live but the last half an hr has been INSANE.
I went to the tooth guy yesterday to ask bout getting my teeth cleaned and they referred me elsewhere cause they don’t do cavitiy fillings and imma neeed a few, anesthesia is pro eye and the first doc ever that referred me somewhere else so I can get the most for the $$$
And that was notable hahah they gonna do the braces tho!!! I’m nervous 😬
Here’s some pix hehe my fav green on an adidas shirt I found at KOHLS??? Lololol, the X-ray of my front of my teeth and how unaligned they are 🤣 and a quote that rly stuck with me. ❤️🩹
Gooooood morning!!!! Hehe 😉 you guys see fjrst! I keep out doing my biggest drops with bigger ones 😂 only limiting myself to making clothing like once every couple months cause it takes sooooo much out of me lol I’m a super bad masochist I like to do things that are strenuous when I’m in more pain than normal 🤣🤣🤣
I’m so so stoked in this drop though! I have to take pics of the UV but a ton of them glow (the color that flows is green/yellow) AHHHH which one is your fav?
ALSO! TRIAL ABOUT TO HAPPEN! I’m listing these as I watch this 🤪 hahaha
And i will get back to all dms 🥰🥰 thank ylu guys for making the start of this month really chill, I feel a sense of calm today that I’ve not felt in awhile, like I’m not scrambling around the minute I wake up n shit in survival mode haha I’ve become so used to being in that mode of living because so much has happened in my life to where it can just get uprooted in an instant and has happened so many times but I’m safe here and I’m starting to fjnally feel like OKAH okay haha so hopefully I’ll go live soon 🥰 haven’t done any non clothing art in like a week and a half I’m jonesin hahahah
Here’s the link for the trialll!!!! I won’t see if you say hi in the live chat tho cause I’ll be multi tasking hahaha
https://youtu.be/EAK7uNXp9FQ
