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growth

2020-10-25 22:28:59 +0000 UTC View Post

I’m not in the best place mentally. I get panic attacks even..

I’m not in the best place mentally. I get panic attacks even opening social media so I’ve been slowly deleting my personal accounts. I got a message from a “fan” saying they’re upset with me because I don’t post as much or even the same content anymore, and I’ll be very frank, I told them they won’t be missed and blocked them. This is my only safe space to post as only close fans have access to this page. But I’ve been thinking and, I don’t even think I deserve fans. So please don’t continue to support me because I have nothing left to give.

I am a human fucking being. I’m hurting every single day. I go to work at the club as therapy and even there I’m not the same. I cut off my world, my therapist, everything.

I’m tired of being a burden to those around me by just existing.

I’m tired of putting so much effort into people just to be tossed aside when I’m no longer needed.

I’m tired of being misunderstood.

I’m tired of not being happy.

I’m tired of everyone giving up on me.

I’m tired.

I am just so tired.

2020-10-15 11:49:03 +0000 UTC View Post

I’m here I guess

I’m here I guess

2020-10-13 04:39:51 +0000 UTC View Post

I wanna end me

2020-10-09 15:51:58 +0000 UTC View Post

“Before anything, I’m sorry And I’m sorry and I’m sorry agai..

“Before anything, I’m sorry
And I’m sorry and I’m sorry again
It’s all my fault
It’s all me
I told you I shouldn’t have existed
Hey, I’m really sorry
I can’t just be cool about it
Cuz my stupid personality
Is from my parents’ precious DNA
I want to change too
Like the actors on TV
I try practicing in front of the mirror
But I’m not very good at acting happy

Sorry for hurting
Sorry for being sad
For being someone who is emotional
For being so damn weak
I’m really so sorry

You said that the most useless thing
Is to worry about a girl like me
But why is it that every day
You do those useless things?
What do you know?
All the pain I’m feeling
Can you understand 1/10 of it?
Oh yeah, I shouldn’t even say this
I’m sorry
please don’t be mad
I’ll be more careful
Without knowing
Like a robot
I’m just a machine who can’t be emotional
A machine that just sings
I’m really sorry

Sorry for hurting
Sorry for being sad
For being someone who is emotional
For being so damn weak
I’m really so sorry

I’m sorry
Cuz I’m just a machine
I’m sorry
A machine that just sings
I’m sorry
I’m sorry
I’m sorry
I’m really sorry
I’m sorry
I’m so tactless
Not able to read what’s going on in the world
And for just hurting
Sorry

Sorry for hurting
Sorry for being sad
For being someone who is emotional
For being so damn weak
I’m really so sorry.”

- Heize “Sorry”.

2020-09-24 17:30:13 +0000 UTC View Post

My lil pole routine to WAP ✨ Now make it 🌧 if ya wanna see ..

My lil pole routine to WAP ✨

Now make it 🌧 if ya wanna see some WET ASS PUSSY 💦😈

2020-09-09 20:32:48 +0000 UTC View Post

Heading to work! Who’s coming to see me??

Heading to work! Who’s coming to see me??

2020-09-05 00:55:01 +0000 UTC View Post

🌸✨ Pink Glitter Bath ✨🌸

2020-09-03 19:15:57 +0000 UTC View Post

Lil preview of my Halloween outfit I’m pulling together 🥰

Lil preview of my Halloween outfit I’m pulling together 🥰

2020-08-30 18:35:51 +0000 UTC View Post

Chillin today since I started my period 😞 I had hella cramps..

Chillin today since I started my period 😞 I had hella cramps to start out my day so I’ve been in PJ mode all day. Gotta practice these new tricks tho ✨

2020-08-28 02:14:49 +0000 UTC View Post

🎶wiggle wiggle wiggle🎶 ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

🎶wiggle wiggle wiggle🎶
( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

2020-08-26 18:53:40 +0000 UTC View Post

Come join me on twitch for Twintail Tuesday stream! ✨ it’s n..

Come join me on twitch for Twintail Tuesday stream! ✨ it’s not gonna be as wild as I am here but maybe in a different sense 😂😎✨ twitch.tv/sayuriin @ 6pm central

2020-08-25 18:37:12 +0000 UTC View Post

I keep disconnecting from live bc of my bad connection at wo..

I keep disconnecting from live bc of my bad connection at work so ripppp

2020-08-25 05:34:04 +0000 UTC View Post

I’ve been hella tired lately bc I’ve been doing more workout..

I’ve been hella tired lately bc I’ve been doing more workouts 🏋🏾‍♀️ ✨ I still got ways to go but how am I looking? Should I incorporate more pole workouts? Comment below Kings ✨🥰

2020-08-23 21:07:17 +0000 UTC View Post

Have a goodnight everyone 🌙

Have a goodnight everyone 🌙

2020-08-18 07:56:12 +0000 UTC View Post

Heading to KOD! Come see me shine! ✨

Heading to KOD! Come see me shine! ✨

2020-08-16 00:57:49 +0000 UTC View Post

Thank y’all for being so patient with me 💕 Pics and vids are..

Thank y’all for being so patient with me 💕 Pics and vids are still for sale! Menus are available via DM ✨ Coming back from my semi-hiatus with some cosplay content soon! Please look forward to it loves ♡

2020-08-12 15:26:27 +0000 UTC View Post

Pardon my recent absence but I promise I’m alive and well! T..

Pardon my recent absence but I promise I’m alive and well! Things have been getting pretty hectic lately so I haven’t been able to be at home all the time unless I’m on stream or asleep! (Even a week of rest turned into a week of errands lol) not to mention I’ve been working doubles at KOD now so I’m there all day mainly! BUT I’m preparing an 🔥EXCITING🔥 photoshoot soon featuring the winner of the poll I posted! Can you guess what it is? 😉

2020-08-10 19:41:40 +0000 UTC View Post