I remember when I was about five years old I was sitting in the car with my aunt. She bought me m&m's in a yellow package. With nuts. She told me: “if you come across a gray candy, then you can make any one wish, and it will come true right away. But you must think carefully before making a wish”.
Those who eaten m&m's know that there are no gray candies. My aunt deceived me. But I stubbornly searched for a gray candy in every pack. I bought these candies all the time to find the gray one.
And then, sitting in the car, I thought, what wish would I make? And then I definitely decided that I wanted to be an adult. I want to buy sweets myself, not to depend on anyone. Do what I want. I remember how I was tossed between the desire to be an adult and travel the world. But I chose to be an adult.
Now I'm 25 and I still choose the first option. Being an adult for me does not mean being an adult by years.
For me, being an adult means being free, conscious. Be able to analyze, reflect. Learn to control my feelings and emotions. Be the master of your life. To be free.
I believe that the only important thing that you should instill in your children (if you have them) is FREEDOM! You must let them be free. Explain to them that no one should ever infringe on their freedom and choice. I think that when they become adults, they will be infinitely grateful to you.
It's great to be free. Be free from the opinions of others, be free from stereotypes, from society. To be free is to live your life 100%. Freedom is happiness!
P.S: But only if you know what to do with your freedom 😉
Everything was fine until my grandma and grandfa started drinking...
Alcohol.
At first they drаnk on holidays, but a lot. Then on weekends, and then every day. Grandfather became aggressive, often raised his hand to me. I could have been beaten for any little thing. They could kick me out of the house, rummage through my things. They said me, that my mom left me and nobody needs me. Then they woke up in the morning and pretended that nothing had happened. I didn't understand what was happening. My heart was broken.
My beloved grandmother and grandfa turned into strangers to me before my eyes.
This went on for about ten years. We stopped communicating. We lived in the same apartment, but like strangers. Sometimes they drаnк and broke into my room and a drunкеn circus would start. I was scared and very upset. I have tried many times to rent an apartment separately. Due to the fact that I studied at the university, it was difficult for me to combine study and work. There was not enough money. But sometimes I moved to other apartments. Then i came back again.
Last year, something happened that put an end to this all. Grandma and grandpa were drunк again, broke into my room when I was there with my friends. They kicked them out, and then they tried to kick me out. They said that I was a wh*re and many more hurtful words. Then I packed my bag and never went back there...
It hurt so much. I cried and worried so much. It took me half a year of classes with a psychologist to get better. I didn’t understand. WHY? After all, I love them. Now I have come to terms with all this. I am still sad. But I understand that this is their choice. I cannot do anything about it. I cannot influence. My grandparents died a long time ago for me. These I don't know this people.
I am a little tricky to write this. I do not expect regret from you 😌 I've come to terms with this for a long time. And I learned to live with this. Yes, I am sad to know that They live next to me, on the next street. But I cannot communicate with them. I can't come to visit and eat my grandmother's pancakes. Hug her. But I still love them ❤️ Whatever happens. I cherish all the memories in my memory and heart
Therefore, I do not drink alcohol (in very rare cases). I hate drunк people. Alcohol is evil. Alcohol kills and destroys everything around 😞
There will be no news today. There will be no stories about my grandma. There will be no posts about my country. Today I want to thank you.
Thank you for being here. For your words, your support. Thank you for appreciating what I am doing. I get so many kind words 😭 I want to hug each of you. I am so glad that I have a lot of stories that resonate with you. That you find something in common. Thanks for writing to me. For sharing your stories and problems. I answer to everyone. Each of you is such a kind and bright person.
I listen to the stories of some girls who say, that them are written by perverts and various strange guys. And I do not understand what it is. Because only the most wonderful people write to me. You have no idea how grateful I am to you.
It doesn't matter what gender, age, nationality you are. It doesn't matter at all. Each of you is very educated, very attentive and kind to me. I do not know why. But please stay that way forever. Give good to this world and it will always return to you. Everyone can give evil, but no good. You are all wonderful. Even the one who is no longer here. Thanks anyway for your help ❤️ I love and hug you forever. I wish you good mood everyone 😘
I had a lot to do today. But this morning I woke up to terrible news!
😨*Our president has closed the borders!* 😨 WTF???
Closed the exit from the country. I was furious. After all, I have already applied for a visa for my moving. Nobody knows what to do. I was so upset and canceled all plans. I'm just lying on the couch. 😭
I can't believe that everything that happens in my country is all because of one person! All these: protests, murders, t0rture, closed borders, repression, lies, deception, intimidation, fines, and prison. All this bullying of people exists in the country because of one person. Can you imagine this?
I just want to leave here because I want to live a better life. I want to earn money and not think that everything is expensive, that I can drink coffee at home. If I want to have coffee in a coffee shop, I do it. I want to be able to pay the rent and not be limited in everything all the time. I want to travel, I want to see the world. I just want to live a normal life. So that I can feel safe. What would. I could express my civic position and participate in the life of my country and know that I would not be sent to prison, where the conditions of detention are similar to the stories of a grandmother who went through a concentration camp! Now is the 21st century. And I can't leave here ...
🐥And I also have a new set fo SG, if you are on the site, please support me, like and comment. I will be pleased. Perhaps he will be noticed and he will be on the main page. Thanks ❤️
PS: If you are not there, then here are some photos for you. What do you think? :)
In the video, I'm doing sports 😅 I swing my buttocks. The sport we deserve 😅
And now some news. Yesterday I found out that my grandfather fell ill with coronavirus. He is in intensive care. The doctor said that the chances of his survival are very small 😞 There have been a lot of infections lately in my environment.
In our country, the president denies the presence of the virus. He doesn't believe in it. Therefore, we do not have quarantine, tourists can come to us. We have a very high mortality rate. Not only among ordinary people, but also among doctors. All our hospitals are equipped for patients with coronavirus. People cannot get routine tests at the hospital. This is not possible now. The hospital can provide you with first aid.
You cannot take sick leave, you cannot pass other tests, if something hurts you. Because all hospitals are full of people with coronavirus. Even the maternity hospital. Even hospitals for cancer patients.
At the same time, the president still denies the virus. He says that those who wear masks are stupid. That these are not masks, but muzzles for dogs! 🤬 Not indifferent people try to help doctors on their own. Ordinary people order protective kits for doctors. For their money. They bring medicines and masks. They make funds to support doctors and families of victims.
What the state does is zero. This is terrible. Videos appear on the Internet about how the corpses of people who died from the virus lie in hospitals. But the state still does nothing. The data on the virus is very underestimated. Doctors are silenced. Those who try to tell the truth are immediately sent to prison 😰
But on TV they show how doctors are dressed in full protective clothing. How the president comes to hospitals and talks to patients. And how good everything is with us. This is such a lie. In order to shoot such a video for television, the president ordered all doctors to be sent home. And for the filming of the video, his assistants came and pretended that they were doctors. And in the place of the patient in the video was the chief doctor of the hospital. Can you imagine? How angry are people when they see this lie? When we watch these videos, we can't believe our eyes! 🤯😡
I remember once with my grandmа we went into the forest. For mushrooms. It was early in the morning. I always tried to wake up earlier than my grandmother, so as not to miss anything. She went to the forest, picked mushrooms, then cooked pancakes with mushrooms 🤤 I loved spending time with my grandmother.
🍄 One summer morning, we went to the forest together. We walked, my grandmа told me about mushrooms. It was light. Sun was shining. The forest smelled so delicious. The birds were singing. The air was so clean. I was so happy at that moment.
☔️ When we were leaving the forest, my grandmа tugged at my hand and shouted: "Look!" I turned and saw a huge black cloud, it was going straight for us. The sky was almost black. This is the first time I've seen this. Grandma said it was going to rain. And we started to run into the house (our house was next to the forest). A cloud was running after us 😂
🏠 I remember how I ran onto the porch and felt the rain on my feet.
🌧 I stood and looked out the window. I was impressed. The sky turned black in seconds. It was so beautiful and so creepy in one moment. And the most beautiful thing about it all. When I looked out the window I saw that it was raining in my yard. And behind my fence the sun is shining and there is no rain. I couldn't believe my eyes 😱 My grandmother said that it happens. After that, I saw a huge rainbow. It was wonderful.
I was so attracted to nature and natural phenomena. I've thought about it so much. At such moments, something changes in me. I feel so much energy and inspiration.Since childhood, I have been inspired by nature. This is the most beautiful thing I've ever seen 🥰
Yesterday I went to visit Olga Kulaga. Many of you know her :) We are from the same city, but we saw each other in person only a couple of times, not for long. And we decided to finally mееt and chat. I want to say that she is a wonderful girl.
We quickly found a common language and talked. The conversation was very sincere. We discussed a lot of things. I love such simple and open people :) And yesterday we decided to drink some wine. I do not drink alcohol at all. Very very rare. And so I slept very badly all night. Woke up this morning with a headache.
I want to clean up the apartment a little and cook borsch :) Have you ever tried borscht? And do you know what it is? Can I show you how I do this?) 🍜
Yesterday we had protests (they take place every Sunday), they turned off the internet again all over the country.
🙇🏼♀️I went out to support people in our area. Yesterday, in front of my eyes, the police beat the guy, he lost consciousness. Then several of the police officers saw us (we were not in a large group a couple of meters away, behind the trees). They noticed us and ran after us. We were able to escape and hide in the store. After that, I stood outside for a long time, because I could not go down to my house. There everyone was surrounded by paddy wagons and the police. While standing near shop, I managed to get to know my neighbors, who also ran away from the police. Very nice people. We talked a little, said words of support to each other, and each of us thanked each other for not giving up.
💗 I believe that everything will be fine in our country. Now I want to leave here, because the country is not safe and the economic situation is very bad. Our currency is depreciating. Due to the fact that the authorities turned on the printing press. The state has no reserve stocks. They take money from people. F0rcing banks to write off money from bank cards. Many are not paid salaries and pensions. It is very difficult for many now. But I believe that we will cope with this and everything will be fine. I would like each of you to visit here.
🧸 In general, I am doing well. Now I work a lot, sort things, clothes, household appliances. I distribute something, sell something. All this is needed for the move. I want to sell my bike. I love this so much. It's hard for me to part with this. But I can't take my bike with me.
🎁After the Christmas holidays, I will be applying for a work visa to Poland. It scares me a little that I will need to work in a warehouse for 8-12 hours. But without knowing the language, I cannot find another job. I hope that I will succeed and these difficulties are temporary. Write me kind words so that I would not be so sad 🥰
Do you know about my love for body parts? No? So, you know.
I love body parts. I really like the collarbones, lips, back. I want to shoot a similar video only in better quality. And with a lot of frames.
It seems to me that we fall in love with some of the characteristics of a person. We like to touch our hair, lips, neck, hands. Some people like legs or hips. Kiss the belly or back. The human body is so beautiful and unique. I always admire how nature can create masterpieces. Take care of your body, look how beautiful it is! 🥰
What emotions and feelings it can evoke. How it can energize you. Can you imagine what power? I like people who can see beauty, notice details. Admire it. And not just to see a bag of meat and bones in a person.
❓What parts of your/ female body do you think are the sexiest and most attractive?
Ps Sorry that I post content less often now. I will try to return as soon as I am done affairs❤️ Thank you for your understanding. Love you
Continuation of the story of how I became a model. 🥸
When I realized that I needed to be naked, I thought I needed to tell my mom. My mom is a good internet user. Would not want it to be a surprise for her. 🤭 I was very worried, but to my surprise, she supported me and said that if I wanted to, she didn’t mind. She subscribed to me on Instagram and follows my sets 😁👍🏼 There are still people who send her my photos in private messages and say “look what your daughter is doing” 🤯 But this only makes my mother laugh and surprises me from the stupidity of some of people.
A month later, I went to Moscow (there are no photographers in our city who could take photographs for s). This is how I met Natalia Randle. A wonderful girl and it is a pleasure to work with her. ❤️ She told me some of the nuances of SG's work. You know, there are so many of them. For example, I don't like that there is a long queue. Now I have removed several sets that you will only see next year 😢 I really want to show them to you. After my set finally came out, I was really looking forward when they to buying it. After all, you do not receive the status of the SG immediately, but only after the first purchase of your kit.
I checked the site several times a day. I read all the comments, I counted every like. Can you imagine how important it is? 😱 How important you are to this! Without your support, I would not have been able to become an SG.
And now, 11 days after the release of the set, they bought it. I saw this message in my mail. I was so happy. I called all my friends and said "oh yes, I did it!" 😎 I felt a sense of a small victory. Is it a great feeling when you get what you want?
I want to tell you a story about how I became a SG model.
Once I was working in a solarium and a guy came to us, he wanted to get a little tan before going to the sea. He began to ask me how best to proceed, how many minutes to take for the first time. So we got to talking. I found out that he has tattoos (it is better not to go to the solarium with tattoos), I began to explain to him, using my example, how to protect tattoos from ultraviolet radiation. And suddenly he said: – listen, you have such a beautiful appearance. Why don't you shoot for SG? I think you will succeed
I didn't understand what he was talking about. He explained to me and gave me the contacts of a one girl who could help me. It was Yana Sinner. Perhaps many of you know her. I didn't think for a long time, I wrote to her. She also answered me quickly. She asked me to send some photos and fill out a form. A couple of days later, I was already registered on the site. Yana sent me contacts of photographers with whom I could work (yes, I cannot work with any other photographer) and then I realized that I needed to be photographed naked 😱
To be continued...
LITTLE SPOILER — in the meantime, here are some photos from my new set. I think it will be just gorgeous. Hope you like it 🥰❤️
Today I am packing my things. I'm leaving Moscow tomorrow. This trip was very productive. I shot a lot of footage, several sets.
I got acquainted with @shameless_sg . We did not know each other personally before, we talked for a long time on the Internet. I am very glad to finally mе€t her, she is very cool. I like that she knows what she wants from life. I love to communicate with such people.
I saw my mom. My mother is depressed now (because her brother (my uncle) died, if you remember I wrote that I was at the funeral) She was very worried. She is much better now 🙏🏽🙏🏽
I miss my cats very much. I'll come back tomorrow I will hug them 😅
When I was 10 years old, in the same village I wrote about below I fled from that same cemetery🙈 The cemetery is located on a small hill. I ran with all my strength with my mouth open. I screamed something it ended up with a May beetle flying into my mouth. The last thing I remember is his tenacious paws wrapping around my tongue.
After that, I lay in bed for several days. My grandma called for me a doctor, he said that I had shock syndrome. My body was shaking for several days.
When everything was over, I could not look at the insects as before. I even became afraid of mosquitoes. Once when I was stung by a wasp, I fainted 😅
I'm even afraid of butterflies. For the last couple of years, I have been able to take a ladybug in my hand. This is a great achievement for me 😅 I'm afraid of the rest :)
🌞Here is another warm moment that I remember from my childhood. I loved spending time with my grandmother in the village in the summer. I took my old bike and rode the sandy road aimlessly. I loved to travel to cemeteries and examine graves. I don't know why I did it. But I've always liked the riddle. I loved to walk and think about all these people. What did they do, who they were. What they dreamed about. I was very sad to realize that they were no longer there.
⚰️ It's always so quiet in the cemetery. I still love cemeteries. when I travel to Europe I always visit places like this. Europe has very beautiful old cemeteries and crypts. I really like the atmosphere of calmness and mystery. It excites me and makes me think and reflect. It is very important. It is important to learn to understand yourself. I do not know why the cemetery, but I’m not scared there at all, but on the contrary it’s very calm.
🌎When I was in Budapest, I went to the «Kerepesi»cemetery. If you ever visit Hungary, be sure to visit this place. It is insanely beautiful and very old. I will attach a couple of photos that I took there. I wandered there in winter, it was cold. Instead of coffee, my glass had mulled wine. So I tried to keep warm 😂
🐥All my memories when I was in the village I remember with warmth. It was the best period in my life. I can safely say that I was happy then. I felt alive. I liked exploring this world ❤️
I think foot fetish is the most common. What do you like best about it? Stockings? Footwear? Bare feet, smell, heels, open shoes, socks? What exactly attracts you to this?
I did not notice any fetishes in myself. 🤔 I do not have any particular body part or action that would evoke emotions in me so strongly. There are just things that I like, but they are the most common.
🔹My name is Valeriya (Lera is an abbreviated name in our country) abroad I introduce myself only as Valeriya 🔹I am 25 years old (23 July 1995) 🔹I was born in Belarus, Minsk. I live here. 🔹I love to travel, but only recently started in 2016. I have already visited 14 countries (in some countries I have been several times and visited several cities) 🔹I graduated from the university with a degree in information manager. I have never worked by profession 😅 🔹 I am an vegetarian. I haven't eaten meat for 6.5 years 🔹 I love animals very much and can never hurt them. But I'm terribly afraid of insects (it wasn't always like this. Do you want me to tell you how it happened?) 🔹 I am Buddhist 🔹 I work in a skate shop. And I make paintings to order and not only 🔹 I have two lovely cats that I found on the street 🔹 I really love to be in nature, I like a dense coniferous forest and a cloudy sea. 🔹 I like stargazing. I've seen 2 shooting stars in my life :( 🔹 And of course I am an SG model (do you want to also tell how I became an SG?)
🗣 I remember a story from my childhood when my parents sent me to a children's camp. The camp was with tents by the lake. I didn't want to be there so much that I decided to go on strike. I didn’t go to eat, refused to participate in events and constantly sat in a tent. Refused to communicate with other children. I spent one of the nights by the fire, refused to go to bed in protest. One day the girls from my tent came and started asking me why I didn't communicate with anyone. I explained to them that I did not want to be here. And they began to laugh and mock me that I was somehow not like that. We had a fight with one of the girls. 🙊 I kicked her in the chest and the ambulance took her. The camp leaders called my parents and asked to pick me up. I stayed there 4 days out of 30 😂
In general, in childhood and school, I often fought. I can't even say how many times.
Our president is crazy. Yesterday he closed the borders and does not even allow Belarusians to enter Belarus 😱 They stand at the borders and do not know what to do. He also gave the order to collect all volunteers from ordinary people, distribute weapons to them, and allow them to shoot the protesters. 😰
You have no idea how scared I am. I’m under constant stress because of this. I try to distract myself and do something, but sometimes it's hard. Why are people so cruel?
I want to get out of here. I want to move to Poland. But now I can't, because the borders are closed. And now I am collecting money for the move.
💰 My OF subscription will always be cheap, I will not put an expensive subscription and I will be grateful if you stay with me and support me 🙏🏽Thanks to everyone who is here. I cannot give you much more. But I'll try to make it interesting for you. That we would recognize each other. Nowhere else do I do this kind of content. And I always worry about what to tell you. Your feedback is very important. I only do this because - YOU! If you will not be there will be no these photos and posts. Each of you is a part of it all. Every comment and every like is very important ❤️
❗️ You can also support me by purchasing my art, T-shirts, calendars and everything that I do. I do everything myself : designs and ideas. You can also offer your ideas, I will be grateful if you participate in this 😊
🍓Soon I will be able to get to Moscow, and I will do two, or maybe three new sets for SG😋 Because of the coronavirus, it is now very difficult to leave the country. But I got the opportunity to go from one business campaign.
🍑Also, I make calendars for 2021. I make them myself, each will be signed by hand, with wishes for each month. I really wanted to do something nice for you 🥰 I hope you enjoy it. Tomorrow I will find out about printing, and I hope they will be ready next week and I can make an announcement ❤️
It was a little star on my finger. I remember of how I persuaded my mother for a very long time, that she say yes to me 😂 Through screams, snot and tears, she allowed me.
On the Internet, I found a tattoo artist who did tattoos at home. Then I still did not understand anything, and I really wanted to do it. I did not understand that everything should be sterile and that all conditions for a tattoo should be met.
Oh, how stupid I was. I think everyone goes through this.
Sometimes it’s so great to look back and remember how carefree you were, and it seemed like your whole life was ahead. At now I have my whole life ahead too, but time goes by so quickly ... 😱
Therefore, I never think about how I will look in old age with my tattoos. I can die at any moment. Life is too short to think about it. So now I want to get tattoos and I will do them. I'd rather regret later that I made them than vice versa ☺️
❓Do you have tattoos? Do you remember your first tattoo?
Many have asked how I got depressed. What happened.?
I have always been a cheerful person, I had many friends, I wanted to go to a theater college. I loved performing on stage and was always very sociable. But one day I met a guy. Hahah yeah, my depression was because of love.
My boyfriend was a very rude person. He often offended me, pointed out my shortcomings (which I did not know about before). He told me bad things. Sometimes he was kind and then I was happy. But more often he was very rude. He mocked me morally. And I have changed a lot. I cried constantly, I was on my nerves. He often cheated on me. I could not leave him because I was very y0ung and very in love. He was good at manipulating. Only after a while I realized that I was in an addicted relationship. Have you heard such a term? I felt very bad in this relationship, I slowly killed myself. But i could not leave. In addition, I had problems in my family (but I don’t want to talk about that). This also affected my condition. This guy was constantly breaking up with me, yelling at me, he was very rude.
We've been in a relationship for 5 years. And he left me this time for good. I was very depressed. There was so much resentment in me. I was going crazy. I climbed the walls in pain and despair.
After I coped with depression, after a while, I began to understand that he was innocent. During this period of my life, there was a turning point for me as a person. And I am also grateful to him for that. He did a lot of good things for me. You just start to understand it only after a while.
We met after a long time and he asked for forgiveness from me for the fact that he did act not beautifully with me and deceived me. He even wanted to start all over again, but I did not agree. At that time, I did a great job on myself and did not want to go back there.
I learned a lesson from all this. Everything that is not done is done for the better. And after a while you understand it. No matter how hard it is for you now, you need just to look back and understand that everything is passing! 💪🏼❤️
This morning I was at the funeral (my uncle died), I'm fine. But I was a little depressed by this atmosphere 😔
Then I went to protests. Sunday as usual. I just returned home. The police shot people again. How I hate them! I have a very bad headache, I have already taken two pills 🤯
How was your day? Write me in DM or in the comments here, what would you like to hear the story about? What story can I tell you? ❤️
