Full dance on p@treon link in socials. Dance therapy is thought to improve mental and physical health by activating psychological and physiological processes such as motor coordination, and expression of emotions. Some currently used mind–body interventions for posttraumatic symptoms address both mental and physical health. Did you know this? Have you tried it?
2024-03-29 00:11:03 +0000 UTC View Post
Which one event in your life has been the biggest so far?
2024-03-28 17:00:04 +0000 UTC View Post
She never cared for the crown or sword she preferred the heart and you?
2024-03-27 07:05:40 +0000 UTC View PostHello Awesome Souls Here is a little sneaky Taste of Dances I post on p@teron - link in socials. I am making this post available to everyone who is here - I can't thank you enough for the love that you show me and this is a small gift for you as we head towards April ❤️ Sending you love, Rhy EDIT: Full Dances on Tier 2, and 3, 4 nude❤️ Password: dance
2024-03-25 23:00:15 +0000 UTC View Post
Full shoot on p@treon link in socials What’s the best reality you wish for and how does it compare to your present?
2024-03-25 17:00:03 +0000 UTC View PostHow did this all start for me? Have you seen my latest @sprytly @audriasana video https://vimeo.com/ondemand/twofoldfantasy Loved making it for them. Checkout my top 2 tiers p@treon you can get all my old Audri Asana Workouts as part of it. In the top 3 tiers p@treon you can join me for over 2 years worth of nude yoga, workouts, dance and art to enjoy and pursue - link in socials. So let's get back to how it all started for me....I started nude yoga through instagram and then eventually to share it to the world there through art and videos censored. However, before this moment I was practicing yoga in the nude because I was trying to learn how my body worked. I wanted to build a mind muscle connection. I came from a background of running and swimming and learning movements in flexibility and arm balancing was completely new to me. So often when an instructor says open your chest, squeeze your side butt or scapula. I could not understand this. I had no connection between my mind and the muscle. As a runner you put on your shoes you do not think so much and just go and each day you go a little further or faster. As a swimmer you put on your swimsuit and you do drills and strokes to learn technique but you never learn what muscle to focus on to activate to create the drill or technique. Practicing nude made me see the muscles and in turn learn how to activate them. On instagram I then became part of a private nude yoga group where we shared our yoga and our vulnerable thoughts. Following this I hosted a nude yoga challenge stripdown asanas before insta became too challenging with a group of women. We talked about self love and sensuality and really created a hashtag community. Then entered volo where I did my first nude yoga shoot for the world to see and bikini sensual shoots - this is a part of it the video above. The first nude video in German when I saw it, took my breath away. It nearly made me cry. I was ashamed to feel so happy with it so I stopped the tears. The reason I was ashamed was because a whole group of women yogas had gone to an ultra famous insta yogi with over a million followers who followed me and told them I was a porn star and one yogi had place my private chat about my r@pe, physical, mental, abüse, attempt on life and daughter on her stories and blocked me but made fun of me. It was truly eye opening to see a yoga community I came to for healing was in fact so hurtful and judgmental. Never in my life had I expected this. It took me a lot to stay strong and not go into darkness and off social media. One thing that kept me remembering my worth was this ultra famous yogi wrote to me and showed me heart and what I thought all yogis were meant to do. They told me that they were extremely sorry this was happening and if I needed anything to let me know. I just said thank you and she reminded me that there were amazing people still online and in yoga. Returning back to the video I created with Volo and first saw...Watching this video was so magical because it was the first time I saw myself and loved myself truly. The first time I saw myself with beauty. I found watching myself free in the grass the most magical thing. It was like I was a kid again, not a thought, not an opinion of the outside world jading me, just that barefoot, footloose and fancy free girl from Tasmania playing in the grass in Germany free as she had dreamed to do all her life. Years later Volo stopped due to numerous reasons and Audri Asana and I started to work together. It was so beautiful to be in a group of women celebrating each other rather than tearing each other apart. I have always felt so humbled to be a part of their work. They make me so excited to raise my daughter to know women no longer compete but celebrate and nourish each other. Around the same time I also started sharing my full nude practice on p@treon now the top 3 tiers - link in socials. It has been a hard, humbling and yet beautiful journey. There are a lot of people who will tell you your value decreases by sharing your body or you are a bad parent or person. There are a lot of people that will tell you that you are pßrn and misappropriate you too. Then there is this wonderful other group like you all that get it for their own reasons and each day I come here I feel so blessed for that. Every day I am learning and growing. I am never fully in love with my body. Every moment, many moments I am still working on that. I still work on self love and acceptance. I still am healed and unhealed. I am still never truly believing I am beautiful. I still work on being kind and compassionate to myself. I personally feel I never truly have it all together, I am still a work in progress but at the end of the day I love being human and real with you all. Knowing I no longer have to hide and pretend. I also love that we can talk about sexuality and sensuality and know this is a part of life. In fact to be a healthy human we need to have sex and connection. However, we also know that this is not all, there is movement, mindset, healthy nutrition, friends, having work life balance and so much more. It is so refreshing to be in a community where there are no subjects untouched but there are also boundaries to know we all have different levels of comfort and humanness we share. I hope you enjoyed learning more about my journey.... Tell me how did you get into nude yoga, workouts or photography? Or if you have not, why not?
2024-03-24 15:53:24 +0000 UTC View Post
@sassy.yoga77 makes my heart full and happy. Have you ever met someone online and then met them in person?
2024-03-22 23:00:27 +0000 UTC View Post
New Naked Workout is now up on top tiers p@treon link in socials and new paid per view. I love working out with you all. Thought you may enjoy this information on Repeated Bout Effect. Have you experienced it? I loved reading it and had to share it. Interestingly, James Clear (author of the #1 New York Times bestseller ‘Atomic Habits’) has discussed how the Repeated Bout Effect can have a carry-over to many aspects of our lives, such as the spike from caffeine the first time we have coffee compared to having the same cup of coffee every day over a year, the rate of fat loss at the beginning of entering an energy deficit compared to weeks later this rate slowing down, or an excellent example he used was that if new to pushups, working up to 30 reps all build muscle, but after doing the for a while, the need for progressive overload in someway is needed in this example to produce more stimuli such as greater range of movement, paused reps, weighted vest. Recovery is fundamental to adapt and come back stronger! We can think about it like we don’t actually grow muscle in the gym or our home area space… we create the stimulus and send the signal that we need muscle; our nutrition, rest and sleep are essential for recovery from the self-imposed stress we placed our body under! We even differ in our training and our proximity to failure… some of us are more volitional (when we decide we can’t do another rep), technical failure or where the concentric portion can no longer actually be performed. We sleep for different lengths of time. We might perform long runs at the weekend. We might have a very stressful week, have a job where we sit most of the day or are on our feet all day and amass 20k steps… lots of variables that we should take into account. But I am sure we can all agree that the most powerful aspect of recovery to have an impact is sleep. If you are experiencing extended DOMs for more than a few days, an increase in your resting heart rate or decrease in your heart rate variability (if this is something you measure regularly), mood changes and general ability to deal with perceived stress, low motivation to train or even feeling the same weight lifted previously feeling more challenging, considering our sleep might be the first place we pay our attention, alongside energy intake. And if you do experience DOMs, a well-known quote, ‘motion is lotion’, is definitely applicable here; even going for a simple walk can help. Movement is considered the most effective means of helping to alleviate discomfort during DOMS as it increases the circulation of both blöod and synovial fluid to the joints. That’s what active rest days are perfect for! Have a great workout today Small Gift for all being here one of my vimeo programs click on the link in the computer and follow the prompts. Shoulder mobility and strength https://vimeo.com/r/3nuQ/NEJNMEF1Wm Blessings Rhy
2024-03-20 11:06:14 +0000 UTC View Post
Have you ever tried Pole Dance? Do you think it is easy? Check your Inboxes now.
2024-03-19 23:00:27 +0000 UTC View Post
Do you prefer front or box splits?
2024-03-19 17:00:02 +0000 UTC View Post
Part water part milk bath have you tried?
2024-03-18 17:00:01 +0000 UTC View Post
Links https://linktr.ee/openheartscanunite The cost of distraction is the person you could’ve become. I've learned that the key to success is not just working hard, but working smart. One of the most powerful techniques I use is deep work - focusing intensely on a single task without distraction. Turn Off Your Phone Notifications, calls, and texts are the enemy of deep work. Reduce Multitasking Studies show that multitasking reduces productivity by 40%. I focus on one task at a time. Don’t Multitask. It is the ability to screw everything up simultaneously. One small step at a time. Practice Mindfulness And Meditate Take a few mindful breaths. This helps to clear our minds, reduce stress, and increase focus. Mindfulness gives you time. Time gives you choices. Choices, skillfully made, lead to freedom. Get More Sleep Make sure you get adequate sleep is crucial for cognitive function and productivity. Practice does not make perfect. It is practice, followed by a night of sleep, that leads to growth. Focus On The Present Moment If my mind starts to wander, I gently bring it back to the present. This takes practice, but you can train your brain to focus. Take Breaks - Paradoxically, taking breaks can actually improve your focus..go for a quick walk, do some stretches etc. Connect with nature Train your brain daily Exercise daily Eat well for you Set up a daily priority list Have fun and be flexible to the approach Happy Monday
2024-03-18 09:16:42 +0000 UTC View Post
When someone says they know me because they see me naked. I think I don’t even know myself and I’ve known my naked body my whole life. When someone says I’m bad because they see me naked. I think of all the horrible things people are doing clothed. Shootings, wars, damaging the environment, crimes that are speakable, domestic abuse… How could naked mean that? When people say that they want to see all of me. I think that it is scary and gifting to let my mind unfold for another. They really want to see me and hold space, to hear the thoughts people told me don’t make sense, to see my scars and my bad moments that I’m still trying to heal from, to know my likes and dislikes… that is to see all of me. When people say they want to turn me on and make me feel pleasure. I think wow they must really know how to make me relax, let go and unravel in the moment through the mind… the physical aspect for me only comes when my mind is in peace and harmony in the moment. To see me naked is to know my physical being, to be turned on to see another naked is to know your physical being, to turn me or another on is to know the mind of the person. Nakedness is simply me being part of nature barefoot, footloose and free. Some art from p@treon link in socials, as I cook at home I capture a few moments playing for the camera for you all. Happy Saturday Rhy xo 💋
2024-03-16 16:17:09 +0000 UTC View PostNew video with @audriasana https://vimeo.com/ondemand/twofoldfantasy Sacral Chakras! Looking to increase pleasure and connection in your body and life. Look no further, increase your sensuality and celebrate your body with this yoga flow as we tap in our sacral (sexual) chakra. An open or balanced sacral chakra is also associated with greater emotional health. You feel stable emotionally and are comfortable sharing your feelings. You also have an easier time setting healthy boundaries. Energy flowing freely through the sacral chakra allows for higher levels of creativity. You find it easy to come up with new ideas.
2024-03-14 23:00:28 +0000 UTC View Post
What does art mean for you? How would you describe it, what does it make you feel? Do you like to bathe or shower?
2024-03-14 17:00:02 +0000 UTC View PostIt takes 1 choice to build a new habit if you are absolutely fed up with where you are. Join @audriasana @sprytly and I lets create our real wealth our health. New workout https://vimeo.com/ondemand/twofoldfantasy
2024-03-12 07:28:12 +0000 UTC View PostIf we had a dance together what song would we dance to and what 3 questions would you ask me? Join me on p@teron link in socials for 2 years worth of dances to enjoy like this or nude top 3 tiers
2024-03-11 23:00:12 +0000 UTC View Post
What work would you like to do if it’s not paid and there are no restrictions on time and resources?
2024-03-11 17:00:02 +0000 UTC View Post
To be peachy or not to be peachy isn’t the question. The glute max plays a major role in: Performance, joint health and body looks. Here’s something you need to know about growing the🍑 - Stance width helps dictate what muscles will be used in an exercise like squats or deadlifts. A more narrow stance gives the glutes more leverage to extend the hip: Contrary to popular belief, a wide stance (lots of abdüction) does not give the glutes as much leverage. It keeps them in a shortened position & doesn’t allow them to fully stretch & contract. A wider stance might help you “feel” more glutes, but biomechanically speaking, the glutes don’t create that much hip abdüction during hip extension. Are you joining me for a booty workout on p@treon link in socials.
2024-03-08 23:00:27 +0000 UTC View Post
Some of my fav moves backbends and handstands. I think they are so beautiful in the uncensored form. To see the body at peak poses of flexibility and strength and the muscles rippling with struggle, is really the most amazing site. I have always loved to watch the human body struggle in movement as it overcomes and becomes stronger in sport. Not only has it helped me to watch my body nude to move to build self confidence, but also to build awareness of how my muscles move. For many I can understand the relationship to nude movement and sex as I feel it brings that sensuality. I am not here to show erotica or porn but I am here to share the human body and understand people will enjoy it and see it differently and have different intentions for being here. There is no wrong or right. To share freely is a gift and honor with you all and I believe we all get to honour and experience it differently with our own intentions. To connect movement and sex...When we have sex we experience sweat, muscles move and ripple under our skin and the body goes to its peak of pleasure where everything is vulnerable and real and beyond what we imagine. There is no holding back. The end is exhaustion and joy. This in my opinion is also the same in sport. You cannot plan this, it is sweaty, the muscles are straining and it is vulnerable and where you go beyond what you think you know and plan to create pleasure and pain too and the end is exhaustion and joy too. Both also require getting to know your body and understanding yours or another body to create more trust, connection and possibilities. No matter if you are playing sports in a team or being intimate. You also require the ability to see your body with love, to let go and be vulnerable. Because it is not always pretty it is real and powerful, however. If you do not see your body with love and acceptance what happens is, shame will and thoughts will hold you captive to not get the fullness out of the experience whether it is sports or sex. You will be too concerned about things that you get restricted by them. Our life is about wholeness. Everything is linked. We used to only have sex to recreate the next generation, now we have it for pleasure too. Even our next generation are linked to being intimate. Society has made shame and judgement a link to devalue so many things like sex and nakedness. However, it is actually a healthy part of life. We just need to know how to interact with it and be mindful of it. For example in fitness not everyone can do a pistol squat. It does not make it bad or good exercise. It is just that some bodies don't have joints and muscles for it. So we choose a different exercise and way to move for our body that nourishes it instead. The same needs to be applied for sexuality. We need to find different ways to move with it in each life to nourish the experience. Our body is a tool for life. For pain, for pleasure, for health, for connection for all possibilities. The more we understand that everything is connected and not shame ourselves for the feelings and the way we are thinking. The more we can create better connections to ourselves, experiences and others. The truth is It is not the body, nakedness or sexuality that is an issue, it is just how we interact and connect with it and those around us. If we think of it like this.... We walk down the street and we find someone beautiful. We may take that thought home for self pleasure. However we do not go to that person and say those things on the internet, we just say all we think, whether it is about sexuality, judgment or anything we forget to hold space to see what is appropriate. That space creates respect as we understand we do not know that person well enough to share that with them. But we also enjoy our pleasure and our imagination without shame. It is human. Another example is when we get to know someone in life. We have a more intimate connection. We may say the way you move turns me on or I like x about you or show them something. They are okay to hear, see or do this as we built the connection that we both want to share. We also talk to them about work and life and know sometimes it is not the right time to share this. This is a full connection we build off understanding, time and respect too. We also do not get upset with them if they do not want to share. We understand it is not a 24/7 experience, it also is about timing what we share and talk about. Both are beautiful and wonderful experiences and nourishing life but require different connection points. Not everyone will fully connect on a sexual level but that is okay to still enjoy ourselves in our mind. Some will and that is wonderful and a gift to have that interaction. Some will also and then some will stop connecting and then start again etc and that is also okay too. Just like when we were with someone's life and that intimate time ended but we remain friends. Both are beautiful connections and nourishing when we experience them with the amount of respect and interaction needed. So let us not forget it is okay to be a sexual human but we have to understand that we have different levels of expression for us to enjoy it and none it has to hold shame. It is only when we expect everyone to see the way we do and get annoyed when they dont we lose that wonderful experience.
2024-03-08 06:21:30 +0000 UTC View Post
In a world that often has instant requirements & information, validation & approval. There is a powerful lesson in allowing people to be wrong about you. The truth is, not everyone will or will want to understand your journey, the things you say, your choices, or your character. It is a hard thing to learn but that’s perfectly okay. Time is so precious & we are often wasting it defending ourselves to those committed to making us wrong or not willing to hear our stories. Imagine changing our focus points & investing that energy into being the person whose character speaks louder than the naysayers or giving our energy towards those that actually see us. I used to run internationally & nationally. One day I was just done running & walked off the track in a qualifying 3000m race. I’d never quit anything before. My coach rang me up & told me I was a disappointment, pathetic, wouldn’t amount to anything & other unkind things. I felt devastated & those words hurt me deeply. She was an Olympic coach & if she thought that then it must be true….. For a long time I believed I would never be anything & was a disappointment. Truth was I was finishing college & I didn’t have enough money to pursue being an international athlete full time. I had to go to work full time & make a living a different way. Making hard choices people don’t understand or you can’t explain is a tough thing & part of life, but it’s harder when people create stories about it or anything you do that aren’t true. At the end of the day we are only who we believe we are, what we believe if it is the words of the outside world or ourselves makes a big difference. Because we can only control our thoughts & we are the one living our lives. Critics will always be there....but remember to write your own stories & make sure no one defines you or writes yours for you. We don’t have to be understood to make successful choices for us. My journey was different to what I dreamed & what many wanted for me but I had to choose me. We all have to choose ourselves or otherwise we miss what is truly waiting for us trying to live up to others expectations. Join me on p@teron for nude and bikini yoga over 2 year worth of content to enjoy. Try a paid per view here. There is over 21 new videos a month over all the tiers and new art every day dropping too - Link in socials
2024-03-07 10:28:31 +0000 UTC View Post
If you won the lottery today, how would you be in 5 years?
2024-03-05 17:00:01 +0000 UTC View Post
What would be your perfect weekend? and If you were to perform a duet with a famous musician, who would it be and why?
2024-03-04 06:24:39 +0000 UTC View PostCan you balance and flow in these positions? I remember trying this thinking it looked easy and falling on my back every time.
2024-02-29 23:00:09 +0000 UTC View Post
Sinking into the new month like? What is your plans? Have you tried my middle splits tutorials on p@treon link in socials March - Lets look what is ahead on p@treon next month. Tier 10 20 min Yoga 3rd - Full Body Activation Warm Up Flow Beginner tutorial 4th - Handstand Alignment Drills Flow 1 mine 8th - Opening me Flow Full workout 10th - Quads and Legs Workout 1 Coffee Talk 17th - Coffee Talk Now Yoga 18th - Handstand Balance Tutorial Mediation 24th - Sensations Meditation Flow 2 mine 28th - Opening You Flow Hump Day and Yoga Pic Wed 7, 14, 21, 28 Tier 20 3 Sexy dances Dance 1 7th - Smooth moments Dance Dance 2 15th - Feeling flight dances Dance 3 22nd - Soaring beyond dance Tier 100 Yoga 2nd - Floor Flexibility Flow Part 1 Workout 5th - Full Body Workout Complex Part 2 Yoga 23rd - Floor Core Part 1 Sensual Dance 30th - Swing with me Dance Picture Yoga and Hump special hump and pic Tier 250 Workout - 1 Full Body Workout Complex Part 1 Yoga - 6 Floor Flexibility Flow Part 2 Dance - 12 Memories of freedom Dance Workout - 19 Full Body Workout Complex Part 3 Yoga - 21 Floor Flexibility Flow Part 3 Dance - 26 Light within Dance 18-20 Pic
2024-02-29 17:00:01 +0000 UTC View Post
I found this mariemur.com outfit unpacking from moving. What do you think. Looking forward to making a dance in this one. Top 3 tiers p@teron - link in socials. Happy 29 Feb any special plans? Have you experienced the hindsight bias. The term "hindsight bias" refers to the tendency people have to view events as more predictable than they really are. Before an event takes place, while you might be able to offer a guess as to the outcome, there is really no way to actually know what's going to happen. After an event, people often believe that they knew the outcome of the event before it actually happened. This is why it is often referred to as the "I knew it all along" phenomenon. For example, after a person's favorite team loses the Super Bowl, they might feel convinced that they knew the team was going to lose (even though they didn't feel that way before the game). The phenomenon has been demonstrated in a number of different situations, including politics and sporting events. In experiments, people often recall their predictions before the event as much stronger than they actually were. The hindsight bias is very common, but that doesn't mean that it doesn't have negative effects on how you think about past events. Believing that you knew the outcome all along can lead to an overreliance on the accuracy of your own predictions. In order to minimize the hindsight bias, you might try keeping a decision journal or thinking of alternative outcomes that also might have happened. By taking steps to prevent hindsight bias, you can help improve the accuracy of your judgments.
2024-02-29 08:17:13 +0000 UTC View Post
Currently I am eating breakfast it’s pretty good after a hard training session. But I’m still dreaming of lunch lol 😂 I’m soooo hungry What did you eat for breakfast? I made homemade porridge Walnut, cinnamon and apple , dash hemp seeds, almond butter and pea milk. Leave it in the fridge overnight and heat up. But I ate cold as was so hungry 😋 Ready to do yoga join me on p@teron link in socials for a yoga flow to start your day.
2024-02-28 07:33:11 +0000 UTC View Post
What are three items you might purchase at the grocery store to get strange looks from the cashier?
2024-02-27 14:09:01 +0000 UTC View Post
My whole life I have been highly sensitive. I use exercise as a way to help me find the present moment and release stuck emotion. I'm working on meditation every day but like most it is not an easy process. Sometimes I feel like I am born into a world that doesn’t care. I'm the girl that feels everything. Everything I do is done with thought and concern for others and me second. If you ask my family they will often say why dont you get something for you for change or take time for yourself. You are always giving to everyone else. I was raised in a house where my mum suffered a lot and all I wanted to do was be the easiest kid and not make her life more difficult. I did that so well that when I struggle with my daughter being stronger than me of late, I ask my mum if I was like that. Mum says no. She said I was an easy kid. I slept right through the first night I was home. Being easy doesnt mean your internal world or life is easy, far from it. I am so proud my daughter is strong willed and has boundaries. However, sometimes I do not know how to handle that strength and set boundaries because the kick back is exhausting. As a kid my mum and brother used to come into my room and mess up my books and cds. I had them in alphabetical order. Maybe it was something to do with my Dyslexia so I could read them properly or I was just super tidy? After they messed the order up. They would wait for me to come into my room and watch me and laugh when I was upset it was not in order. I say to mum why would you do that wouldn't it be a gift to have a tidy kid? I’ve learned over the years to not be so ordered. It doesn’t in the real world. Many people that spend time with me know I do not choose often or express my needs. I still do not want to disturb others' flow. I just want to fit in. This often puts me in a place of discomfort doing things outside my comfort zone. I believe it is good to be outside your comfort zone. However boundaries are also important too. I am working on those. As mentioned earlier I grew up with dyslexia. I still struggle today with it. I am proud of myself as I have learned German for casual conversation. I took 4 years of French as a kid and only remember 4 words. So to learn German and converse on my own is a big win for me. As a kid to cope with my learning difficulties I became a hard worker. So I could overcome what others found easy. Learning to spell words I would write a list and memorize the words for the next spelling test. I cannot sound words out. In English I would get Cs barely passing due to my dyslexia. In school I was called a Spock. I was always studying because otherwise I would not pass the tests others found easy. Since I was a kid everything I do I put my heart and soul into. I learned hardwork got me to where I wanted to go. The only subject that came naturally, surprise, surprise was sport. However, I used to run 100km a week to be an international runner. train in swimming 5 days a week 4-6km sessions and do 2 x2hr sessions of water polo practice to be a state swimmer and national water polo player. So truthfully I've always worked hard. Even today. People think flexibility and fitness comes naturally to me. For me over the last 10 years I've trained 2 hrs most days at 5-7am before work to achieve my goals. So I am not sure anything comes naturally. I just work hard. But as you see I endure suffering too and am a work in progress, because I’m still terrible at setting boundaries and asking for what I want or using my voice fully, as I don’t want to upset people. One day I had a business meeting. For dinner we were asked what we wanted. I said anything is fine. So seafood pizza it was. If anyone knows me well. I don’t like little eyes staring at me or legs in my dish. I also am not a fan of seafood pizza. I was so determined not to make a fuss I ate one piece then another to the point I finally nearly vomited. That was when I finally said I don’t want anymore. I’m a people pleaser by heart and my suffering can go a long way before I set boundaries. I’m working on it but it's a work in progress. People see me as confident on social media and maybe everything looks easy but I want you to know the real me. I am shy. I am a work in progress. I am sensitive. It is easy to film and share content when you are the only person in the room. If you met me in person, sharing these skills on a stage unless I have a teaching gig would not happen. I hardly ever go and do a handstand publicly in random places. I am working on building more courage to do this. My dream is to think less and do more without hesitation. I am a person when I say I will do something, I follow through. When things don’t go to plan and I disappoint others I feel really overwhelmed. I know you cannot please everyone but it’s hard for me not to care. In the last few years I’ve had some great souls in my life let me down. It challenged me immensely. They had to focus on themselves and I understand this but in the meantime they forgot they would impact and limit others by not showing up for them. I am also grateful for there are amazing friends who see me like last night and remind me it's okay. I cherish those people who can see through it all. What I find hardest about this is the impact is a ripple effect. People look at me like I’ve done something wrong and or make an intention that isn’t mine. It then causes people to see me as the problem or doing something wrong. It breaks my heart and often we can't fix it as people do not want to hear your side of the story. It is a bit like Instagram/youtube. If you wear a bikini and do yoga you are automatically erotic content. You can write to them as much as you want but they will not see you are hosting a yoga challenge, you are a swimmer and a swimsuit is your normal attire, you are comfortable in a bikini and love doing yoga that way, sensuality is different from erotica etc. They will be stuck on their views. Infact on youtube I did a yoga flow in Vienna Austria with a professional photographer. Youtube took it down and gave me a strike on my account as they decided my handstands were sexual. I wrote to them and asked how they can have bikini girls at the beach, gymnasts perform in one suit and it is okay and you gave me a strike. They just sent me an automatic response that sexual content is not allowed. That is the world we live in and that is how many of our interactions happen as humans too. We do not give people a chance to tell their stories. As a highly sensitive person this impacts me deeply. Because my whole life I’ve not wanted to make waves and only want to help people. I know I’m the girl on social media that is naked for some. However this isn’t to make people uncomfortable or be erotic it’s actually about healing for me. Once you’ve experienced assäult, abüse and traüma (cant spell these words properly or social media dont let you post or often remove the posts). Like most of us big or small T you have to find a way to reconnect with yourself and the present moment. They say beginning to feel a sense of sensuality is connected to reclaiming one's voice, agency, creativity, vulnerability, and power and that is true for me. To love your body, to experience sensuality; like enjoying a cup of tea or dancing to music is a gift to me. To find intimacy in connection with yourself, others and life and not be ashamed about it is a milestone for me. To love your body and not feel like it’s a walking limitation is life changing. To dance like nobody's watching helps me to breathe through anxiety. To get out of my head into my body is medicine, movement is medicine. To breathe for me and say words in my own voice is one of the greatest blessings in the world. A THOUGHT FOR TODAY: The greatest happiness of life is the conviction that we are loved -- loved for ourselves, or rather, loved in spite of ourselves. -Victor Hugo, novelist and dramatist (26 Feb 1802-1885) My friend sent me this quote and for me this rings true. Last night I struggled immensely. I wanted something to come to fruition and it didn’t and it ended up falling apart, to the point I looked like what I wanted was something else. I could not enjoy my dinner and I could not even sit and watch a movie. Today starts again and I have to work hard to feel I’m ok. Right now I wish I could ride off into the sunset to a place where I feel seen and understood and do not feel me right now. However, instead I’m writing this post figuring out how I can find more compassion and less empathy so I can feel suffering less. I share this with you all because I get the sense many don’t really see the internal worlds on socials they only see what is meant to be seen. I want you to know if you struggle with anxiety, self love, healing, life is hard or whatever suffering it is. We are all on this journey together learning to put compassion into action so we can reduce suffering. No one has it down pat. It’s something we have to work on our whole life reducing suffering. Self care is not selfish and if you care as deeply as me and many. You’ll realise self care is at the heart of benefiting others and changing the world. To know who you are, to be responsible with who you are, how you feel and what you do with your mind, body and soul is the greatest act of service to your life and others. The goal in life is not to become a Buddha if you meditate. It is to become a Buddha in order to be able to display the enlightened activities for the beings to remove their suffering. Progressing on the path to meditation is a way to help us get to the root of suffering, rather than patching up suffering, which is ignorance and endless suffering. What is exciting today is that neuroscience has proven that similar areas of the brain are activated both in the person who suffers and in the one who feels empathy. Thus, empathic suffering is a true experience of suffering. So now I know why I suffer so much as a highly sensitive person. However, I can't just sit there and blame how I was born. So that is why I share and write my journey as I learn to grow and learn how to suffer well in life. I see so many complain about how long it takes to get fit, flexible or our minds to calm down. However, so many of us do not regret the years it takes to complete an education or master a crucial skill. So I hope we can learn to stop complaining about the perseverance needed to become a well-balanced and truly compassionate human being?” I have also come to understand that although some people are naturally happier than others, their happiness is still vulnerable and incomplete, and that achieving durable happiness as a way of being is a skill. It requires sustained effort in training the mind and developing a set of human qualities, such as inner peace, mindfulness, and altruistic love. And my dream in sharing here online is we build communities and do it together so we do not feel alone in our suffering and can rise by lifting others.
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